current mood: CLEARED whoos. finally pba is over! yeah. that means all my projects are cleared. I'm so damn happy eh! went to JP after the lecture with ah hua and i was fuming okays. RH shouldn't be rude to mrs ng. RAHH.damn angry okays. he think he's ah beng?RAHH went to do the jigsaw and bought my body spray at body shop. whoos. after that bused down to dear's house. but unfortunately, the bus broke down and it was nowhere okay! luckily got cab, and i wasted money eh. well, had some erm. dont wish to say. and now, i'm struggling with photoshop.cant install! and jay's reached here alr! alrights. got to go. lucky tml's lesson start at 2. but got guitar. rahh next wk is study break cum bca test. -.- maybe i'm wrong.

current mood: just like the weather.

well, alone is a nice movie. it's damn damn damn nice okays. but it's scary. but i dont think it's that scary probably because of 2 reason: 1) long time didn't watch horror movie. 2) maybe it's because of the sound effect.

yeah. not much to blog about. yeahh. life's boring. was trying to do excel and econs revision. and only manage to do abit. but i think at least i did something. instead of sleeping and watching tv. do some work will lift up all my stress. lols.

alrights. got to go. editing somethings. =]

dear, I'm sorry for this morning eh. really sorry. gomeinasai.

omg. can't believe i'm watching sailor moon. and it's not cartoon. it's.. live action. but it's nice. sailor moon used to be my all time favourite! my childhood favourite!

whoos. isn't this pouch nice? I want it sooo badly ehhhh!!!! I wants!!!!!! if anyone of you saw this or have this or saw this in any of the blogshop selling it, please tell me!!!!

current mood: feeling cold =]

alrights! I'm such a lazy bum!!! exam is round the corner and yet, I cant be bothered with it. was trying to study just now and my concentration level really sucks. I just could not do it man. I wanted to do econs past years exam paper and tutorial questions but I just can't bring myself to do it. omg. how man? and I have been online-ing for shopping. shitty me.

the weather is so cold man. Luckily I have order more cardigan yeah. and there's some spare jackets for me. whoos(:

my mind is now all blank. *wink* Isit better in this way? free from those trouble? hopefully?

and..and.. and! I wanna watch ALONE! diirector from shutter! I bet sandra would love to watch this movie eh? eh dear, you must peii me watch. no matter how scared you're! I dont care! =]

ohya. that day had a conversation with dear. this is how it goes:
me: dear, what do you like in me?
dear: everything lor(yawning)
me: what thing la?
dear: huh? you want me to say everything ah?
me: of course! *evil grins*
dear: erm.. cause you're cute(-.-"), you're nice, you're ye man....
me:*smiling shyly.*

LOLS!

and today when we were watching tv, there is this scene whereby 1 guy and 1 girl were looking at each other, got sot dian. I started conversation.
me:dear, why we dont have ah?
dear: got leh.
me:where got?
dear: there, that time lor.
me:when? say properly.
dear: arcade.
me:which part. arcade so big.
dear:very short while only.at the stepping there(DDR)
me: (LAUGH)!!!

dian li too much. lols. kidding. hahas. bored bored bored. dear's working now. and my concentration level really sucks like hell. RAHHH.

tml going out again. hopefully will be a better day. right dear? =X

current mood: average. so-so. stomache pain. =(

finally jap's over and guess what? I'm the first to finish everything. the letter and the reading test. and damn funny. everyone was looking at me as if I'm an alien. I used less than an hour to complete it okays. I think will pass but I don't know will score well?

just don't want retest anymore. I want to continue the module next sem. hehes. reached home rather early. whoos. PBA almost done. yeah. didnt contribute much. the guys contributed alot though. POn-ing school tml. cause only got BMGT revision lecture. 2 hrs. might as well don't go. =X ting, BMGT sucks. next sem when you take then you will know. OMFG. hahas. =X

yesterday I got a bad dream. lols. I wonder why I dreamt of that. hahas. but anyhow, it won't be true. =X choy. dont make it true eh. lols.

ohyea. was browsing through somethings and I realised a lot of stuffs. people who I thought is so innocent and guai type ended up to be those "Chao Ah Lian". but those who i think are CAL are not. -.-'' I can't believe it eh. she should be those guai kia but she ain't. wonder who smoke in our class. so damn wanna find out. I think the class will be shocked to know eh?hahas. whatever. the class is going ot be separated in few months' time. treasure the class eh. =]

I ordered another cardigan again! I'm such a spendthrift!=X and I'm still looking for MS little tees series. I want the naughty and trouble de. =)) and I found a dress soo nice eh. wonder if i should buy or not? and the necklace that jiaoni and I like it so much. Should i buy? and.. my s.h.e casio watch!!!!! RAHHH!!!

darling is still sleeping. soooo pigggg.. I'm tired. and my ulcers irritate me!!! when will dear call me? RAHHH. lonely in the night. lols. music is with me! and I'm happy!

I'm in school now. -.-" and there's no BMGT tutorial later. which means i have to wait for don't know how long then go for jap lesson. and I think I need to revise again. -.-'' total 2 paper consist of 60marks. -.-''

slacking time!!lols. damn sian luh. my stomach still aching. ohya. was talking to jiaoni just now and thanks girl, for telling me the jap thingy.hahas. thanks!!!

stomach still damn pain. aching. omg. I guess I'm gonna have a foul mood again. damn. pain. time faster pass quickly!!!!!!

after one day, I miss my baby again! misses. <3

current mood: HAPPY. PAIN.

rahh. my stomach pain! tml got jap test. the stupid letter. was self practising just now, i guess should be okays. lesson start at 2pm tml and.. i have to reach school by 11am. poor me. need to do on pba. wrap up everything and tada. all will be done and i can start my revision.

Well, I'm a HAPPIEEEEE girl!! hhaas. sandra dearie, thanks for showering me with your concern!appreciated!not forgetting yanying and jiaoni! you all are the best. and li xia too! =] you dont emo okays? if not i will emo with you.hahas.

alrights. got to go. my eyes are damn tired now. yawnz. @.@

ohyes dear, I hope you will keep your promise and yes, I trust you! ^^

I cried again.

current mood:mixed feelings. angry, sad, sense of emptiness, hurt.

I appreciated that you surprise me by popping up at my school. but, I thought we would have wonderful day together and ended up, we didnt shopping at all. this is not i want. I know you're not feeling well but I'm hurt. and i dont blame you.

you made me cry. and you hug me tight. I could feel the warmth, the concern that you give me. I dont like you to shout at me. wonder how many times i have shed tears for you. crying has become my daily routine.

I want to cry no more. I dont want to be hurt again. all I ask is to treat me better. I don't like you to raise your voice. and now you're sleeping and i'm alone in your house, what can I do other than watching tv? I just feel like going home.

I tried to make you happy. I tried.. but. I dont know.
I want to walk off just like that. But.. I hold back.

Some pictures of great value. and it's priceless. hope it will reminisce their memories!

SANDRA's DRAWING! wonder what we all do in class? DRAW and SLeEP! that's why our O lvl result are the same! =]

The threesome!ALL BLACK!

I think this is 2004? that time i still look fucking toot.

my darling sandra! she's chio right?with her rebonded hair. I remember she took my hp and zilianing.=X having Sushi buffet. =]

this is how we dont even care our xing xiang. we love to do the things that we like. Do for ourselves and not for others! ting's oiinkk! =/

memorable day! at bugis around 1plus PM. and there's not yet a single shop open on the 2nd level. see how stupiid we are? but the times were enjoyable! i love you bestie!

look at my hair!! during racial harmony!!! she tied my hair! and make it so nice. hahs. the 2 kampong girls. my dear fren, remember? and ting! she didnt wear her costume and she didnt want to take photo with us.

4E2 ROCKS off my ASS! with beloved Mr kaan.I miss you guys!

twiiniiie and me again. no matter what, we will still be best friends!

LOOK AT THIS!!!!! i love this man! times with her simply rocks!

she's cute in this!

2E2 at sentosa!! I look toot and ugly! =X

DSS NETBALL ROCKS!!!! I love you girls although there are some misunderstandings and "conflicts " but nevertheless, i love you all!

whahas. my beautiful memories. I love them all.

I like my blogskin. Give me a clear mind and kinda 'pure'. =] hahas. I wont be emo again. cause I have gotten the answer which I yearn. yeah.

I'm a happy girl. =X

had bei bei mian with ah ying and ah hua today at cheers. both of us ate bei bei mian while ah hua ate nacho. =] hahas. the times with ah ying came back again. oh no. i sound like a les. but i'm not. signed up for the BAoc again. hopefully next year would be a fun one. saw alot of people in school again.

didnt expected to see zhar bo.hahas. she cut her hair!everyone whom I met was saying i got kuku eyes cause i didnt saw them. sorry ah. didnt try to act dao!exams are coming!!!

had guitar today. gosh gosh!! my fingers are fucking pain like nobody's business! damn pain. hhaas. but must persevere!!!and i finally made up my mind and buy that white stripe cardigan. hhaas. and the girl said there will be new arrivals of dresses! maybe i will purchase. can't help it. no time to go shopping then have to do it online. cause i spent most of my time on online-ing.

in the end, tomorrow's trip to town with ah hua is cancelled cause she had her legs bandaged. and maybe.. I should join ah ying for study. (puke) or .. i should go town my own? or I should go find dear and dragged him peii me go? or.. or.. or..

FAN ah!hahas.

yeah.gonna call dear soon eh. luckily he's feeling better and YES! meet ups with dearest bestie sandra is on next wed!WHOO!! damn happy. sandra dearie, I miss you!

alrights! NEW BLOGSKIN! hahas. dear, sorry eh. got to change my blogskin 1st cause many people complain that the fonts are sticky together! so i got to change it. =] i will edit the blogskin again. now need to concentrate on other things.

I'm glad that you're feeling better. so glad that you called. I missed you!

i love this blogskin. hahas. AH HUA saw this skins a couple of days ago. =X

right ah hua?

happily ever after.

I'm happy cause the ending is a happy one!
I'm happy cause there are many people who care alot for me.
I'm happy cause I left with one project and it's almost done.
I'm happy cause my brother has recover from his sickness.
I'm happy cause I received the 1st cheer up card from sweetie YanYing.
I'm happy cause wednesday going out with Ah hua =X

I'm sad cause I'm worried for dear!
I'm sad cause tomorrow got guitar.
I'm sad cause exam is coming.
I'm sad cause our class will be splitting up soon.

well, I got more happiiieee than saddddd. =]]

well, really thanks my friends for concerning about me. indeed, yesterday I wasn't my usual self. I'm sorry guys. was emo yesterday! a BIG apologise to you guys! thanks for being there especially dear, yanying, yanhua and jiaoni!!thanks people. I will be the same chaileng again!

and one thing i'm not happy is that dear's sick. accompanied him together with his mother to the clinic just now. his lao mao bing. lungs. dear, don't make me worry for you. dont make me cry for you. dont make me lose concentration. dont.. dont... I hope you will be fine tml after a long rest. and take care of yourself!!! hurt to see you like that and i really hope you would stop smoking. my wishh. i want nothing except you quit smoking. i believe you can do it. it's just your psychological barrier.

anyway, why why love damn nice. thanks ting for intro!!!

there's nothing wring between us.

I guess we have some misunderstandings.

自己的痛苦为何要建筑在别人的身上？

dont break my heart.

my tears are drying

no one understand me.

is there a crime for people to be emo or moody?

why dont you understand?why?

sometimes i wonder why am i born in this world?

i won't rely on you.

我会自生自灭的。

i wont need your help.

NEVER

I just want to CRY out my HEART!

i hate you.

emo again.

really can't help it. she made me cried okays. cheebyes.

i just feel like drinking my sorrows away.

my life was black and white before you enter my life.

some random thoughts. blog hoping just now. time really can change a person's personality. i guess, mine has changed alot over these years. sometimes i wonder, why should we bother when the other person already go ahead with his/ her life? perhaps i'm thinking a lot. well, people have different thinking, different friends, different environment and most importantly, people always said that they are BUSY. but how many are really BUSY? I don't think it's alot? people are spoilt. they always use 'i'm busy' as an excuse but in fact they were having fun with their friends? i don't deny that sometimes i really do. but it's human nature i suppose.

anyway, i love my name! CHAILENG ROCKS. lalala.

boyy,i'm going crazy and my heart is screaming for your name!

chaotic! everyone was looking for me upside down! and i got a scolding from my mum. -.-

invisible target was nice!go watch!!!!!

damn tired this few days. and today i met some weird people. especially when i saw the .... omg. imagine on the bus, a woman ask her daughter who is about 28yrs to sit on her lap. and it happen just beside me. -.-
nvm. even a malay girl sits on her bf's lap who is an ang mo!!!!
the guy opposite of me is even more disgusting. and it's from PJC. -.-

RAHHs. my life. -.-

anyway, ytd i saw fiona and ben. omg. she's damn kawaii. she was at canteen 2. hahas. because of the hey gorgeous. hahas.

alrights. got to go. dear's with yong hao they all prawning again. lols. later he never catch much prawn. =]

i received my cardigan already!

life for me has become easier since i have finish BCA presentation and BMGT is about to be finish. so damn happy.

while i was bus-ing, on the way back home, i've got alot of things in my mind and wanted to pour out everything in the blog. but now, i dont even know what i should say.

everytime have the same old problem. sometimes i wonder why people can't manage IQ and EQ at the same time? they can only get either one.

I want to have lotsa money!!! wanna buy things!!!!!
ohyea, to yanying and yanhua, you both wanna go kbox on wed? trying the combination. X)

somehow i felt that i have not talked to my friends for quite sometimes? sandra?wan ting? and yanying?(although it's just 2 days.)

right, different class, different course and different school will make a difference.

well. i'm feeling bad just now. sorry eh darling. for saying that to you. and i know you are tired. i am too. haiz.

woo. I almost done with IAC. hahas. actually i think IAC will be better than LmS. I think. yeah. and i did alot of things already. whoos. pon guitar. hahs. i'm a pon-kia.lols.

tml will be the presentation and today our skit is kinda.. fast and short and sweet and funny. the last part. where yanying fainted. lols. damn cute. =X yanying kawaii desu. =]

tml.. wahhahas. will be the day.

i'm tired.gonna msg dear and ask him to call me soon. Zzz.

yeah. I finally can rip the video into CD. and i redo the video. how scary it is! damn happy now!!!!

dear's prawning again. what's so good about prawning?

Where are you?

i went to bed damn early yesterday. fucking tired eh. the ten tons wasnt great in fact. emo day. yeah. and yesterday i saw the news about ten tons. if i didn't listen wrongly, we all have collected a total of 10m? or 10km? i don't know. my chinese sucks. yeah. and they broke the record of Guiness book. all thanks to the students eh.

waited for the fucking lorry for quite long eh and ended up i cabbed to amk hub. cuz i don't want to let boyy wait for me too long. harry potter isnt good as i expected. i nearly fall asleep eh. and I'm damn touched by dear. I know he don't really wanna watch harry, but he still accompany me to watch. I cried on the cab way to his house. thanks dear!

I treasure the after 3 days of not seeing you effect. made me even cherish you more. and Gary was right, meet up once a few days will make you appreciate each other more. especially when we almost meet up with each other everyday. and when we never meet up with each other for 3 days, it's seems weird.

and silly boyy, i DID post about you. and i only post today. the one you see this morning is last last night i post one. =X

and yeah, to yanying, i might not know what's happening yesterday, bt hopefully you're fine now. don't think too much. me jiaoni and wf will be there for you. hahas. =X

alrites! I'm in the same group as yanying. so tml we will be heading to bartley sec ya! and we will be in charge of 2e2. omg. my last time class.whoots. hope it's fun! and it's so @#$%^&* early. wahhz. need to wake up at 5plus. RAHHH! but hopefully it will be a fun day eh. but the people are really disorganized. and i'm damn fucking tired. need to wait for the fucking email to send to us. @#$%^&* yeahz.garang guni tml. serangoon there. far!!!!!!! i want to sleep.econs paper still okays luh. donno. hope i get the desired marks. i want to hear dear's voice. *misses him

Zzzz

J.K san wa kawaii kunaidesu.
anata wa waruidesu.

=X learn new thing. hehes. =P

alrights. tml gonna pon bmgt again. think going over kap to study?
econs test. whahas. wait for me man. i'm there to conquer you!
i seem to be confident?but actually i'm not. i shall try my best tml. as long as i can get higher marks than that person then i will be damn happy. =X

ohya,boyy, faster change phone.
1. you always cant receive my msg.
2. we can exchange phone =P
3. i want you to buy N95, K810i or W880i. cuz the cam's good.for me!!=X

hahas. i miiss you.faster msg me!!faster finish work eh!

whaha. today was fun. played arcade. went to difficult level of DDR. and initially the arcade only got me and yanying.damn cool. played a few and we went to shop around. went to look for the glitter mascara. hahas. then we walked around.

went to meet dear after that. and slept so soundly.haas. till now, i've finish the project.gonna sleep soon. and dear's still awake. didnt go to bed. notti boii. poor boii. hahas.

short post. cuz i dont know what to post.

cyas.

ii lubb uue deepp deepp nehhs. WAHZ. me and ying's addiction. hahas. we are typing those ii nehhs, worrs, etc. hahas really not my language.

darliinq, wo aii nii shenqq shenqq nehhs.

WHAHAHAHA! soo funny.

dearrie soo longg haven call me nehhs. so damn sianz. still waiting. and emo-ing. my throat is okay now. but i got flu in the afternoon. must be dearr keep missing me and i keep snezing in the morning. hahas.

after that, went for NP strings. today isn't going well.all my nails and my stiff fingers fault. haiz. but i wont admit defeat de. shall practise.

anyway, today manage to get all the things done.i finish studying macro test. but the graph for tax and govt still unclear. will revise once more. i wanna score full marks. cuz i wanna beat someone. who is damn arrogant.

ohya, to my 2 besties.
although we all have gone to our separate paths, and gradually, i know we all have changed due to the different environment. but nevertheless, you all are still important to me as ever.
I still miss you guys alot. especially the times we spent together, the silly things that we took together, camwhoring sessions and not forgetting, the hardship we walked together throughout this few years.

misunderstandings often occurred but if we are able to clear it up, that's the best one that we are. and I know, sometimes, i really felt unhappy because of certain things, but nevertheless, i really hope that we all will still be best friends. forever. till we had our last breath.

Oops. sound abit.. =.=

my dear, when are you going to call me?

camwhoring today. while waiting for the debrief.ahahs. fun fun! ying and ni rocks. hahas. and i helped ni to order the online shopping stuffs. hehes. so happy.yeah! okays. i was assigned to go bishan on sat and i'm the group leader or sector head or whatever. i dont understand what the lecturer say.but nevermind.

i will be a garang guni on sat. looking forward. but at the same time, erm, kinda scary. cause i dont know who will be my volunteers in my group. hope will be a good one. ENTHU one! TEN TONS muz be a success. and dont giv me emo people if not i will also go emo!

i'm damn sick eh. one moment i felt feverish. the other moment i felt cold. and i got sore throat,cough and in addition, i got flu and block nose!temperature is rising too. damn. headache.

ohya. was blog hoping just now. and i came across a person's blog. i guess the person was right. she said that if anyone has anything not happy with me, can you please dont complain behind my back?instead, confront me and talk to me nicely, maybe i would listen?

yeah. i guess she was right afterall.and all human beings' nature is to talk behind the person. i guess it's true for all?perhaps.everyone should be honest to each other in order to build a strong friendship. that's what i think. but personally, i dont think i have done my job well. haiz. well, that's okay. i believed in the meantime, i will learn how to be frank to people.

boyy,my dear boyy, thanks for your concern. i will recover in no time. dont worry. rest assure i will be my oldself again!=X sorry for this few days eh. not feeling well so will give attitude. =]

ohya.tml is study day!yuppps. ying and ni, here i come!=X

whahahs. i'm back. went to buy the things that we need to buy. the TOP! oh my god. i bought one babydoll top. i simply love it. GREEN! whahahs. and we just went to town for only 2.5 hours?this is the fastest record!oh my god..but i get something. at least. and topshop dont have the color i wan. sobs.

and i got sore throat!just now had problem communicating with elena and ting. hahas. then they have to come near me to hear. i felt as if im mute. lols.but enjoy today though it's just a short while. =] saw alot of things i wanna buy. but didnt buy cause no money!

well, i'm off now. got to catch the tv show.whahas. tue, YEAH!

i felt much better now. after what happen.
& dear, i will take care of myself de!

yesterday was GREAT! loves! =] iloveboyy.hahas. he bought a big pig for me!hahas. oiink oiink.thanks boyy. we had lotsa fun at the farm. yeah right? didnt went for fishing prawn!haahs. but dear went to prawning at night. sobs.and i slept early yesterday.cause i'm tired.

ohyesh, later i'm going town.whoos. sure having fun with the 2 girls. loves.hope we can find the things that we want. ahahs.=]

blog when i get home then.loves.=]
baby baby, i will make your day lighten up everyday!

what can i say about today? i don't know. EMO? nahz. i don't know how to say actually. really. many things happened today. the clique outing. i thought it was supposed to be fun..but to me, it isn't. maybe i think too mucch? and they might be having fun. i dont.but i just didnt say out.and i realised i didnt fit inside the clique much.they laugh, i don't but trying hard to smile. yeahz.camwhoring.but didnt enjoy as much as last time. and i think i only took one with ting, some group clique. and the rest is them. sianz. and the feeling is not the same anymoree. and i felt left out.in the middle, i really feel like going home. i don't know.Maybe i'm really tired but actually, when i met them and talked, i felt better.but..something just happened... i dont like today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

just now i already feel like crying.feel like just running away.and now, tears are rolling out uncontrollably.

ohya. i'm damn glad to have jiaoni and yanying as my friends!!they rocks.thanks for being there for me!and jiaoni, thanks for liking my that scary picture. thanks girl.

sometimes, i really hope people who see my picture can comment on my picture.and don't just tell another person.and i get the message from the other person. do you know how saddist it is?and if you all dont like the photo, then just be it.don't appreciate nevermind one.other people do. =P

all of a sudden, i feel like saying, I LOVE YOU MUMMY!REALLY!

ohya.today the uncle's is a real model.good citizen. i shall post next time.
alrights. i got to go.
boyy: i donno..many things are just..maybe..maybe..i'm not a good girlfriend.

whahas. i'm not sleeping now. hehes. nothing much to say. but i wanna say I MISS YOU DEAR LIKE NUTS!!!!!!!!

ohya. i saw VINA yesterday!!!!! and she rebonded her hair!!!omg. ahahs.

and.. tomorrow is the DAY! i'm meeting my clique!my besties!!!WHOOS!

alrights. got to go. and yeah. dear just called me! loves. =P

by the way, i know how to write my name in japanese!and koda kumi rocks!
tml is GREEN DAY!!! our class will be GREEN!!! whahas. sure a fun day. i guess almost the whole class will pon bmgt lect?hahas.

RAHHH! I just wake up from 13hours sleeping!!! to be exact, actually i woke up at 00.11am last night and called dear. and i missed the 9pm show.damn! so after hang down the phone, i slept. agains. from 6.30pm to 8.15am now!omg. what a pig i am.but my head now is super duper pain. and i haven study my jap lesson!shit. @#$%^&*

rahh. have alot of dreams.make me damn headache.and dizzy. wahz..i got my debit card already!whoos

alrites.. got to do other thing.

things needed to do:
bca quiz.
pba e learning
poa assignment
lms blog
macroecons

dear. ii miss you.

i dont understand? why he want to peng wei? cheebye. damn fucked up. super pissed. nabei. never in my life that pissed before. because of this, my mood so damn moody. i feel like SCRRREAAAMMMIIINNNGG. RAHH. TSK. chicken.

bastard. idiot.fucker. jerk. whatever name. peng wei kia. rahh. nothing can appease me now. i want boyy!!!! and i dont even care how i will fare for my bca. a B?a c? or FAIL? i don't mind. mother fucker.

transformer! whoos. went to watch already. nice one!but the storyline is just so so only.hahas. but overall it's nice. anyway, boyy's working already. started today.hahas. sooo funny. the uniform like going to suffocate him. 15more mins and he would be knocked off from work.whoos. waiting for his call. he sure have alot of things to tell me.

@#$%^&* MOTHER FUCKER. CHAO CHEE BYE. BO LAN. KANNINABEH. SOMETHING PISSED ME DAMN OFF. NOTHING IS RIGHT. CHEEBYE. I DONT EVEN KNOW THERE IS THIS MEETING FOR BCA TODAY. AND I ONLY HEARD IT FROM TING. KANNINA. WHEN DID I EVER SAY I NOT FREE? LP. PISSED.

LATER SOMEONE WILL SAY I DIDNT CONTRIBUTE MUCH. @#$%^&* RAHHZ. I GOT NOTHING TO SAY MAN. SERIOUSLY, I FEEL LIKE KILLING AND SLAPPING THEM. NEVER DID I EVER SO ANGRY BEFORE. MEMBERS LEH. NO MATTER HOW MUCH THEY CONTRIBUTE, THEY STILL MUST COME RIGHT? CAUSE IT'S A GROUP WORK. EVEN THOUGH THE PERSON MAY BE OF NOT MUCH HELP. BUT STILL, IT'S A GROUP. EVERYONE MUST BE INFORMED. WTF. THE PEER EVALUATION FORM IS GONNA BE A GONE CASE. JUST WAIT AND SEE. TOMORROW WILL NOT BE A GOOD DAY. BCA MEETUPS AGAIN. BUT I DONT EVEN KNOW TODAY GOT. CHEEBYE. DAMN ASSHOLE.

HE SAID HE FORGOT TO INFORM ME?OMG. THEN I ALSO CAN FORGOT TO GO.FORGOT TO BRUSH TEETH.FORGOT TO GO HOME. EVERYTHING FORGOT LA. HE DONT TREAT ME AS ONE OF HIS MEMBER OKAYS. CHEEBYE.PUAH LAN.

I FELT DAMN LEFT OUT. AND BY THE FORGOT WORD, THIS SHOWS HOW "IMPT" I AM IN THIS GROUP. TOO IMPT.NABEI. I DONT UNDERSTAND. I DONT WANT. I HATE THIS! I HATE BCA. I HATE PROJECTS. I HATE EVRYTHING.

OHYA.to yanying, i'm so sorry yeah?just now start conv with you then straightaway scold vulgarities.but i trying to vent out my anger. hope you dont mind.

dont wish to continue.all my moods are gone. next time then blog about what happen.
by the way, i received my clothes alr.

dear.faster call me.i miss you.i'm bullied. :(

i'm back from uncle's house. okays. morning wake up early and prepare to go his house. the funny and zek ark part comes here. we were waiting for the damn cab for damn long. next, we cross the road to the other side. after that, the fucking cab was damn long. and there's this uncle, he went to cut our queue and the cab driver didnt drive him to the designated place. hahas. after that, my mum was pek cek that the uncle cut our queue so we went to walk in front of him okays.

the cab came and he chiong and open the fucking cab door. my mum was damn angry alright? she was, @#$%^&* yeahz. me and my brother almost said cheebye,bo lan jiao ah. the uncle even say is us who cut his queue. what the hell. we didnt. is him okays. whatever.

we arrived at uncle's house and slack. my cousin became a towkay. omg. and he bought 2 watch. 1 cost 6000++. then he say he don't like. after that he went to buy the other watch for 12,000++ mother fucker. omg. he's damn rich. spendthrift eh?envy!!!!buy that s.h.e advertise watch for me lah!since you got so much money!!!!

slack and slack. cam-whoring. zilian-ing. hahas. all my pics. lols.cab home after that and bought durians. yumm!!!

ghostly cum emo pix! :))

self-obsession.

mirror reflection.

my cosmetic pouch.

random pics. hahas.

well. my dear didnt contact me much today. i'm gettting ....

i'm losing the sense of security, the safeness and the never ending warmth-ness he had showered for me. where are they gone to?or am I..too sensitive?think too much?i dont know.

that's when I love you.

i'm back people. alot of things happened today and luckily, everything is resolved. :) shall not elaborate about the past. lols.
okays.after some draggy-ness today, we went to cathay but.. we didnt manage to watch transformer.lols. ended up we went to PS to shop and dine at swensen. :) yeahz. FUn FUN with dear today!!even though something happened in the process.and i'm glad that we're fine now.

and dear, i wanna tell you something. next time please dont ever hurt me again okays? don't leave me alone. i don't want to be left unwanted. hope this will be the first and the last time. ohya. about that thing, i can understand. i tried to put yourself in my shoes and since i allowed you, please don't hide anything from me again! don't make me lost trust in you eh? =)

thanks yanying for lending a ear to me!!!grateful!!

teary day to start with but still, a happy ending!cam today.

pretty couple

retarded couple.

at swensen!!

dear with walking stick. old man!lols!

random. i look so fat okays.

something to highlight.this may be true for me.

1. They will always smell good even ifit's just shampoo.

2. The way their heads always find theright spot on our shoulder.

3. How cute they look when they sleep.

4. The ease in which they fit into ourarms.

5. The way they kiss you and all of asudden everything is right in theworld.

6. How cute they are when they eat.

7. The way they take hours to getdressed but in the end it makes it allworth while.

8. Because they are always warm evenwhen its minus 30 outside.

9. The way they look good no matterwhat they wear.

10. The way they fish for complimentseven though you both know that youthink she's the most beautiful girl onthis earth.

11. How cute they are when they argue.

12. The way her hand always findsyours.

13. The way they smile.

14. The way you feel when you seetheir name on the your cell after youjust had a big fight.

15. The way she says "lets not fightanymore" - even though you know thatan hour later....

16. The way that they kiss after youhave had a fight.

17. The way they kiss you when yousay "I love you".

18. Actually...Just the way they kissyou...

19. The way they fall into your armswhen they cry.

20. Then the way they apologize forcrying over something that silly.

21. The way they hit you and expect itto hurt. * i think every girl isguilty of this :)

22. Then the way they apologize whenit does hurt (even though we don'tadmit it).

23. The way they say "I miss you".

24. The way you miss them.

25. The way their tears make you wantto change the world so that it doesn'thurt her anymore...

that's how guys felt towards girls.

happy reading!