ii am a terrible td!
ii am truly sorry ferr being so hot tempered!
reli sorry!ii neo sorry no use.
but still sorry!
wadd happen to miie td?ii dunno.
maybe its too muchhs of tings preoccupied in moii mind.
didnt mean to be lidiz de.sry!!
im juz so tired
humans are weird.
mood can be affected by one another.
he's so tired td!shldnt hab cum out study de.
guilty.nd moii action td muz habb frighten him.
sorry!!!!!!!
argHHHh...
dunno wadd to say...
juz wanna unwind moiiself.
ii wanna go back to dat place again!!
nd shout until moii voice break!!
dunno why am feeling stress.
not bcuz of studies.
juz some minor stuffs dat kp bothering miie.
well..ii dun lyk th sch life now.
cuz everyting seems to chg after moii return.
anyway,happy teacher's day!
mr kaan ishh reli dunno how to expres his feelings.
haha!
didnt went back to ZPS.
sian.but went to ten mile wibb th gals.
sry bindy ii didnt go to eur celebration!
happy sweet 16!
ohya,
went to c mr wong td.
juz asking abt moii illness.
im ok now.juz niid to be careful nxt tym.
haha.indeed ii broke a record.
=] well..im prone to illness!
hahahahhaha...
wadeva.c moii entry?
isnt it weird when ii can be moody once nd nxt happy ?
dats miie.weird.

once again,iim sorry!!!!!!!!!!

after 2wks of long break of mc, iim FINALLY BACK!
back to schh!!!!
felt so happy dat im not forgotten by eu guys!
appreciated alot!
yeahh!afterall,sch iishh still a place ferr miie!
moii schh,moii frenz,moii everyting!
im loving it!
but initally its reli ishh weird steppin into schh
cuz im th onli one whu has been absent ferr 2wks.
so its kinda wierd.but a brand new start ferr miie!
ii love it.
tons of homewrks waiting ferr miie.
maths wkst waiting ferr mie to feed dem.
yeahh..
bye.goin to feed dem now.

habb ii been forgotten?
iim still so sick.

3days nv go to sch le wor..
pro huh!ytd went bac to sch awile to take oral.
a TOTAL MESS.
guess moii englishh ishh a gone case.
shit!!!
diz morning miie kindda xinku cuz ii arnd 1plus lidat wake
up..wanna puke.but cant.something stuck in moii throat.
idiot la.sian..
well..reli not feeling well diz few days.
hopefully tml will be a better day.
nd ii skip alot of mock exam too!
goshh..
nvm.can peii josephh whu has chix pox.
poor boii..muz take care alrite!
=/
still having headache..

didnt went to sch td!
damn sick.woke up at 3.41am,
wibb a HIGH fever of 39.9!!!
damn freakin HOT!burning MAD!
nose block!
went to c doc.
ii hate medicine.
how ii wishh ii can stop eating th medicine.
goshh.iim reli so suay.
tml ishh english o level oral.
nd yet iim sick!
duno how to survive.
can die.nd moii temp kp risin non-stop.
tiink tml no niid go sch again.
but ii will go ferr th oral.cuz iim th 1st candidate.
yeah!well..gtg.
not goin to blog so long.
cya.
wiishh miie gd luck.

ii neo wadd happen exactly.
sometyms ii feel dat dere isnt a niid to reli tok abt it
cuz it will make th matter worst.ii tiink.
ii rather prefer to stay mute.
yupps.cuz th matter will soon resolve.
everyone will basically forget abt it nd move on wibb deir life.
am ii rite?no pt brood abt th matter.
yupps.maybe its ouR hormones doin it.
ii neo ii habb a weird attitude.
everyone does habb rite..but its a matter wheta dey show it or not.
ii showed it clearly.obviously.sry.
iim quite a straightforward psn.so if ii ever offended eu..
iim reli sry.apologise ferr everything.
yupps.
once again,wadd ii wanna say ishh..
once a fren,forever a fren!
so no matter wadd happen, we will still be fren?
frenz foreva!rmb we still habb lotsa stuffs to do togta rite?
let's not break th promiz!
ii neo sometyms its reli moii fault.
yupps.
soo ii sincerely apologise here.

hey!let miie update frm ytd.
went to wrk ytd.halfway thru,
ii was being pulled out to booth 1.
kinda suay but michelle say will release miie at 11am
when arif came.
however,dunno why th system ishh down or wad..
th computer screen turn BLUE!kinda shocked!
didnt neo wadd to do but in th end teck liang
came nd tryin his best to fix th prob.
but no help!!!it xcant be done.so ...
ii sat dere..gong gong de.
wait ferr th cars to come nd tell dem to drive forward.
haha.slacking.

anyway,had tuition.kinda in slpy mood.
wadeva yvonne told miie she muz at least repeat 2tyms
den ii can understan cuZ ii simply too tired.
den moii body temp kp rising.
rise until when ii saw its 38.5degrees,den ii kinda
*fainted*..miie alone in moii hse.
woke up by mum.she dragged miie out of th bed nd
ask miie to drink herbal tea in th middle of th nite!
feelin beta now when ii wake up diz mornin.
althou no more fever but ii got splittin headache!!
arr...freakin pain!
ltr goin to his hse le.
to study.yupps.
cuz ii got alot of hw haven complete.
all dose dat ii dunno de.
yupps.hopefully miie can conc. ltr cuZ ii now kinda tired.

my hands are aching ever since morning!
ii reli hope to amputate moii hands!
dey are useless now!
ii dun niid dem!
freakin hands.
idiotic.

anyway,went to watch the lakehouse wibb san!
twiiniie!
we took couple seats!
yeah baby we are couples!
ish lyk we were friggettin all th way.
kp commenting nd tryin to act couple by "hanky panky"
haha..we juz "demo"
yupps.nice movie but nv make miie cry.
at least its not a sadistic movie.
*thumb up*!
walked arnd wibb her at heeren.
was lookin ferr present.
ferr someone.
muz start saving $$$!!
im penniless!!
ii shall announce bankruptcy soon.

ii feel HOT now.
damn!
th fan doesnt seems to be functionin ferr miie
no effect
shit ass.
im emiitting heat.
pls dun come near miie if not eu all
will kena burn by miie!
whaha..exaggerated.
lol.anyway,not goin to retake my o.
tot abt it le.
shall conc. on other subj.
yupps.
but ii cant stand her kk.
she look so proud!im so disappointed in her!
hell..
whrs moii frenship gone to?

ii feel so HOT all over!
temp rising ii suppose.
cuz my teeth aching,my hands are hot.
my face ish hot..
my head aching lyk mad!
my....my...th list goes on..
and iim proud to announce dat iim growin FATTER!
nd FATTER!!
ohgoshh!!im afraid ii wld be th gal in LIFE IN THE FAT
LANE!kp growing FATTER day by day!
imagine tue went to eat steamboat den
TODAY went to eat SEOUL GARDEN!
woa..marvellous!!
wonderful!!turnin into 42inch plasma tv siia.
ii dunwan!!muz start my diet!
nd exercise but sometyms too busy,too tired
nd most imptly, LAZY!
all are excuses.LOL!
seriously, ii niid to cut down my intake of food.
sobb..cant tahan diz few days.
mygoshh..reli can die!
anyway,was sad dat rahimah was OUT!
sobb..hope she's ok.
so flare up wibb th weather !!
one tym ii feel cold,th nxt momeent HOT!
argghhh..stupiid weather.

FAT FAT ND FAT!
ii dunwan to grow anymore FATTER den now!
cuz ii hate th sight of all my lumps of fats!
somemore so disgusting!
tml release of result!!
kinda SCARED!!how???
A1!!!!!!a muz!
but no confidence!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FREAKIN SCARED LA!

im back!my eyes hurt!HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!
paiin..
well..met him td nd we were both late cuz he overslpt!
den make weiiyii waiit ferr quite long.
halfy ishh miie contributed to it.
damn guilty..
reached marina abt 3pm den dey start th match
yupps.not bored.quite exciting.
heehee..
halfway thru,he nearly fainted!
ii was stunned.seriously..
den he rest ferr awile.th referee say he sprint.
dun sprint if cant!
muz be more careful!
th match was alrite.
yupps.ended at 5 lidat.
went to amk to eat wibb him nd his 2frenz.
nth mucchh but my leggs paiin!!
on th way back,
one of his fren tok abt studies den he say abt his stuffs
which ii kinda shocked..nd so FUN!
reli hope to c him CRY!hehe.ii neo im bad!
well..cant blame miie.
went back to his hse
den study.all dose stuffs.
his hse got alot of ppl siia.
den watched tv awile.
SG!rahimah was underperformed td!
kinda sad!!
jasmine quite alrite.
but ii agree wib one of th judge.
whu say dat she ishh droppin her standard.
maybe but no doubt dat she ishh sweet.
but ii still does preferr rahiman althou another
judge say she's aint gd.
wadeva.

anyway, gtg.
gt to finish my hw!!!
hehe..nd
REVISION!!!
o level result release on FRI!!!
I wan an A1!!!!!!!!!

hey!!im back!
ytd was FUN!wentt o marina south to eat steamboat.
met him at cck.saw sharine.
she's kinda shocked.ii can c dat.
haha.den ish lyk both of us were lookin at sharine.
haha.not muchh.
juz surprise to c her.
yupps.anyway, went to suntec walk walk.
saw roy, sam dey all.
dey quite stunned to c miie too.
arnd 6plus we went tto marina south to eat.
mygoshh,we WALKED dere from marina bay mrt.
quite a long journey but can tahan.!
yupps.but my leggs frigging paiin now!!!
anyway, saw sam dey all again at dere!
so coincidence!
ii took too muchh food.
den we couldnt finish it at all!!!
wasted alot of food!
mygosh.
den abt 9pm, th fireworks start!!!
sooooo nice!!!
he video it in his cam!
freakin nice.wanna c again!!!
but lyk veh difficult.
sighh...
after dat, we went to th park nd ii got fa xiie!!
miie screamed nd shouted at th sea!
shiok!but abit insane.haha.

reached home at arnd 12midnite.
mum didnt scold.heng!
reli habb a nice tym!
yupps.ltr goin to marina again wibb dear nd his frenz
to play soccer.haha.
kk la.ltr den blog again abt td stuffs.=]

my contact lens drOpped off from my eyes td!!
mygoodness!!!ii was so panick siia.
in th end,ii gotten a pathetic eyedrop on my lens.
yeahh.diz ishh not th 1st tym.
san was lyk..erm..kinda cua tio.
yupps.ii didnt cuz it happened once.
anyway, mood swing td again!!
yeahh..miie am alwiz lidat de.
cant chg.dunno why.
ishh lyk ii didnt mean to strain th frenship alrite.
ii mean ii juz correct eur words niia.
cuz eu pronounce it incorrectly.
didnt mean it.nd ii dfidnt raise my voice lor.
seriously, iin didnt.dats how loud my voice ishh
Nd ii didnt gibb eu ATTITUDE.
ii neo my attitude sucks but ii didnt kk.
dunnowhy things turn out diz way.
ii dun wan to sit dwn nd sort it out cuz ii feel
dat dere isnt a niid ferr us to do so.
it will make th matter worst alrite.
ii mean ii did accomodate to eu kk.if eu reli wann
to be stubborn, ii dunno wadd to say den.
ii did all my best dat ii cld.
den wadd did eu do den?
nth.ii mean dat day miie still attempt to tok to eu when
we were walkin to his hse.
ishh lyk th atmosphere was WEIRD.
ii didnt expect myself to get into diz MESS.
now dat eu didnt join us ferr recess nd it seems
dat its my fault.
wadeva.kinda piss off.ii will rmb th face dat eu gibb miie diz morning.
sry.ii love to correct ppl's pronounciation althou mine ish
not gd too.
suan le.nxt tym ii shall not bother abt diz.
yeah.im stubborn too.
but ii didnt wanna strain diz frenship.damn it.
nd ii was lyk goin to cry.
for goodness sake.
ii dun lyk diz.reli hate diz.


anyway,ms tan told us abt th motivation camp thingy.
it seems dat it does work ferr th 3na.
nd ii reli hope ii can attend th motivation camp.
she did ask us to close our eyes nd let us relax.
do some visualising nd ask us to tiink back abt th past.
th past few yrs frm young.
alot of memories flash to miie.
one by one.
some are joys.
some are sad.
diappointing especially during secondary.
everything nd ii realised ii chag alot.
especially my result.
mygod.nd ii was kinda touched by all th flashbacks.
tears tickled dwn abit.reli am upset!
anyway, o level chinese result releasing diz fri.
mygoshh.reli hope ii can score well.
ii wanna an A1.
pls..ii dun wan to retake!!!!!!

am angry.am sad.everything.mix feelings.
peer tutoring td.damn it.
didnt neo how to do.
even melvin th expert wibb high IQ oso dunno.
joel too.
miie kp grumbling to joel.haha.
poor boii..so sry!!=]
tml half day!yeah!

MI LU BING WON!!th 1st SUPERBAND!!
SAM!!mygodd!!he look bluRR ytd.
but he was CUTE!!!he's 4eva CUTE!
NICK TOO!
ii was lyk a madd woman.
shouting nd screaming here nd dere
at laogong's hse..he was lyk,
cua tiio.miie kp shoutin mahh.
reli veh excited mahh.
cant blame miie hor.especially th 1st half of th result!
so tense!!reli scared dey would out!!
but nv!!yupps!!
super high ytd!!
kp msging ppl to help out.
yupps.th more th better.
den his frenz came at arnd 10.30 to play majong.
haha..miie lie on his bed watching..
th FINAL result!!
neo how ii feel when ii saw th RED light shone
at MLB dere?
ii shouted nd screamed!
his frenz kinda cua tio!
haha..over th moon.
alot of ppl congrats miie.macham iim their manager,
haha!stay his hse till arnd 11 den go home.
kinda late.but mum didnt scold so its ok.
hehe..

back to td!woke up nd saw dear's msg.
im a SUPER BLURR gal alrite?
ii didnt even neo dat ii nv bring back my homework
until he msg mie to tell miie!
how forgetful can ii be huh?
well..went to plaza to meet him nd pass miie th
homework.
luckily ii finish all my homework.
but not history cuz ii dunno how to do.
forget it.haha..
miie juz so lazy to do. so lazy to tiink.
after national day will be th release of chinese o lvl
result.mygoshh!!im so nervous nd scared.
ii got th feelin dat ii wld not get gd grades.
god ar..pls help miie!!ii niid an A1!!!!
follow by english oral..
not dat nervous but ii do feel pity ferr th examiner
habb to listen to my crapx.
somemore non-standard english.
cant even speak simple english.
my language ishh juz so poor.
too bad..im lidat.
whu to blame? but myself.


ii love diz few days.
spending th tyms wibb eu...=]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PHUI SHAN!
went to suki sushi to eat.
buffet.its fulfilling.
now ii still feel so FULL!!
mygoshh!
haha..went to take neoprint wibb san,WJ nd JODY!!
rare combi!
but ii lyk th pixx!!
hehe..shall upload it again.=]
after dat went to arcade/
yupps.nice one.quite fun.
althou didnt watched lake hse in th end.
quite sad huh!
but overall alrite.

went to dear hse after we habb parted.
ii love eur company!!reli love it.
BIG HUGs fer eu!!=]
muaCKs.
loves 4ever!
his laptop ishh cool!
mygoshh..
ii wan it too..
haha..tml goin to his hse again.
yupps.diz tym goin to study ok?
ii given eu all my heart.
eu habb stolen moii heart.

pissed off.
ii hate myy life.everything.
full of restriction.
nothing can be done.
am goiin to be anti social soon.
dad's stress on miie.mum's objection.
studies stress.money stress.everything stress!
hate it so muuchhs.
why am ii th one whu ishh so pressurized?
ii feel lyk crying.but..tears too stubborn to flow out.
hab been swallowin all th grudges in my heart.
im seriously...TIRED.


felt so left out td.
feel dat iim suchh an eXtra.
perfect eXtra gal.
didnt tok to dem cuz everyone's simply ignoring miie.
wadd can ii do?
all ii did was to gibb dem a black face.
yupps.may look scary but whu cares?
ii wont flare up anyhow.
im a reasonable psn.reli hope dat dey
would neo my existance.
at least try tokin to miie alrite.
no one attempt to tok to mie.
seriously,im quite PISSED OFF.
by them.wadeva.
imagine wibb a group of frenz nd all 3 of dem
macham duno miie liidat.tok among demselves.
hey?!afterall iim still a human being alrite?
ii do exist!
can someone juz try diz feeling?
no one wld lyk it.luckily got my hp peii miie.
if not ii sure will walk out.
thx vonne.


wads th deal?im so proud of myself dat
ii can control my temper juz now.
went home alone cuz ii feel dat its beta she stay
wibb dem cuz she niid her!
ii didnt even habb th chance to tok to her.
nd th other her ignore miie totally.
ii was lyk,FREAK OUT.
frm lot1 all th way till ii went home.
didnt even tok mucchhs except when choosing
prezzies.
yeah yeah.ii got a bad attitude.
everyone does hab it.
msg her to tell her how ii feel.
well..shldnt hab follow dem dere.
maybe diz few days my mood hasnt been happy.
nd she immediately will becum sad when she saw miie.
as if iim her devil.wadeva.
ii hate diz feeling.
tml goin lot1 again!went to lot1 fer 2days alr.
tml 3rd tym.go eat sushi.PS birthday.
HOPE iim not FORGOTTEN by dem.
sry.iim not to be trifle wibb.
dats th outcome when ppl so called offended miie.
dunwanna feel left out anymore.
will be th FIRST N th LAST tym.
ii hate being ALONE.being LONELY.
it sucks.

thx darlin ferr th prezzie!!
ii love it vehh muchh!!greatly appreciated!
turtle!
sandra gave th turtle a name.frm th tag.
its call doodoo..
den she saw another name call kuma kuma.
in th end she related it as...
KUMA KUMA DOODOO!!
make miie lauff lyk madd woman.
lyk nobody business.
hugs th turtle during tutorial
was feelin sick td.mood swing again!
but onli short while.
dats why im gamma!
finally after so long iim late!
cuz go eat breakfast wib him.
yeah!late.nice to be late.
love th feeling.im sicko.
haha..
ii tiink my throat will have infection soon cuz
its stinging miie nd ii ate durian juz now!
heaty!
duncare mucchh.
sick beta.can pon sch.
haha..miie bad gal!!


kimi o ashiteru!

HAPPY 1 MONTH!
ii lurbe eu darling!
=]
kimi o ashiteru!

disappointed in eu!
wadd can ii say?
juz mixed feelings.
upset!