Love is ...

Love is when your heart keep pounding when you see him.

Love is when you do stupid things in front of him.

Love is when he's on your mind all the time.

Love is when you can talk to him about anything and everything.

Love is when you spent quality time together even if it's only 5 minutes.

Love is when he knows what you wanna say through your emotions.

Love is when you are willing to let him go.

What is love to you?

Attended jj wedding and suddenly have the feel of wanting to get married. That's why I pen down what love is to me.

Blissful marriage to jj and Theresa :)

Forgotten

As per title, be it this blog or myself, forgotten has been the right word. Not being emo but things sort of turned haywired recently. Friendships, especially. I lost some, and gained some :)

Some people don't understand how much I value friendship. They judge me and think that I'm overly sensitive which I think they have no right to say so. Many people commented that I have a lot of friends. Yes I do have a lot of friends but most are just hi bye friends. Those that are just passerby. How many actually stayed by me throughout when I encounter shits in my life?

I don't need 100 hi bye friends. I just need a few that know me well. Even if I only have 1 friend that know me well. I'm satisfied :)

Recollection

Took out a bit of my time to re-read some post dated 4 yrs ago and the times when I started working after O level. One word to conclude, childish. Maybe 4 years later when I look back, I might find this post boring too. At different stages of life, the words, speech and thinking are different. Through ups and downs all these years, I've grown to be more mature. And I'm proud to be what I am today :D

I stumbled upon some names in my blog but I couldn't really recall who they were. I'm not sure is it my poor memory that caused the amnesia or simply they aren't important. :P Also, there's some occasions and events where I have participated and yet no recollection of it at all. Other than da bai chi, which I still remember somehow :)

It has been 1 year since the break up. I'm doing good and I think Single really suits me more. :) For I do not have much time for the other half. Status quo till grad :)

Anyway, O Level has started! GOOD LUCK TO ALL WHO ARE TAKING THIS MAJOR EXAMS! JIAYOU TO MY DEAR BABY BRO! <3

Bleak. Dreams.

Haven been on this space for quite some time. I hope there's still people staying and mingling around here. :) I'm still the lazy girl, partly cause I was too tired these days. Being busy with birthdays, baking and making cards. School has started for a month now and I'm still not used to schooling and working at the same time. It's like I'm working full time and studying part time instead. Cause working has taken 4 days. But I'm not complaining cause I love the environment there and having to chiong and frustrated over some issues at work with colleagues. Simply fun yet tiring.

In few months' time, I will be graduating and time to look for jobs. I know what I want but I'm not sure whether I'm up for it. :/ 

On a side note, I've been daydreaming about opening my own bakery shop selling cupcakes and cookies all because of the food network show I've been watching recently. They sure do inspired and spurred me to work hard for my goal :) 

Sharing with everyone, the motivation that I've gotten from them

DC CUPCAKES:

TOUGH COOKIES:

If I have the chance to fly over to US, I will definitely visit this 2 shops to try out their pastries.

Till then, I hope the videos made your stomach growling cause mine do :)

random

I'm back to blogging again. After the long long post over at SPC webby and all the aching I'm experiencing now, I still have the stamina to blog here. Okay, cut the crap.

I'm still feeling abit sad, abit emotional over the fact that I've been missing out some stuff from some friends. It's no wonder I'm experiencing this cause I've been a cavewoman for sometimes. And for that, I didn't contact anyone too.

The month of Sep and Oct are the months that would make me broke. Too many birthdays especially when it's 21st birthday. :/ Gonna get busy soon. Real soon. Especially when I'm working when school's starting.

Have been thinking about life after graduation. What am I going to work as when I graduate? I know what I wanna achieve in the next few years, with the dream job I want. I know what I want, but there's some uncertainty, some doubts in me. I'm not that confident that I can take that kind of environment. So what should I do? I told myself I will look for A&P related industry, and also media. I hope I have the courage to do that.

We shall see.

Twenty one

They say when you reached TWENTY ONE, you will know and have to face like an adult. Yes, twenty one not only symbolizes freedom and stepping into adulthood, but also learning how to handle things.

It's said that everything that comes in your way either deliberately or naturally. You have to face with harsh reality created by the society, health problem, family issues and even financial problems. Not only that, relationships between bf/gf, dealing with broken hearts and the ability to console people plays an important role now.

Twenty one isn't all about partying. Neither is inviting families and friends to witness that you have grown up from a lil gal to a lady. It's all about handling the real, cruel and harsh environment that you have to deal with.

Twenty one is also about planning your life ahead, for you will not know what is waiting for you at the other end of the pole. Protection against anything is always important.

Twenty one, a stage where responsibility has become a burden. And twenty one isn't about grumbling how life's unfair, it's hoe making your mundane life happening and meaningful! How burden can turn into joy!

Work hard. Play harder.

I'm just plain lazy

L.A.Z.Y

I've more time for myself now but I'm just too lazy to get my ass to do those things. Have been delaying many things that I promised to fulfill. Some were way past the deadline. But sometimes I just can't get myself to do the things that I'm supposed to do.

Every weekend I'm trying hard to clear my backlogs. That includes blogging. It seems that my interest in blogging has gone. Whether it's good or bad, I'm gonna surrender this blog soon. But let's hope Mr Lazy could leave me alone so that the hardworking leng can be back to accomplish all the task asap.

I used to have some encouragement, motivation but where are they now?

On the lighter note, I enjoyed working probably because of my colleagues that made my working experience even better. But one of them is leaving this friday. She's also a temp. But I'm glad she's from SIM and we can still keep in contact. :)

After tuesday, I will have one lesser thing to think about. I hope everything will turn out fine.

Have faith, believe in yourself.

I guess most of you should know that I'm a SIM Blogger for 2nd Semester already. Thus, I dedicated most of the time on the other blog instead.

Here's the link: http://www.simge.edu.sg/gePortalWeb/appmanager/web/default?_nfpb=true&_st=&_pageLabel=pgBlog&redirect=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.simge.edu.sg%2Fsimblogseason4%2Fchaileng

But that doesn't mean I won't blog here. This is my personal blog. :)

A place that I can rant without worries :D

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!

This year's fireworks is really awesome! Tonight I'll be going to watch it again for the 3rd time :)

Last weekend was really busy. Went to my Niece 1st birthday chalet at Aloha Loyang. See the difference? I held my 21st birthday at Aloha Loyang Chalet and my Niece held it too. But her 1 year old instead -.- Because there's not enough bed, I've got to sleep on the floor with mum. Whole body aching and I caught a cold :( It's really unpleasant experience though.

The next morning, we left and headed to my 2nd uncle house to see my nephew!! Omg he's super cute!! He just came back from Indonesia and the younger one still at there though. But, he's very short and super heavy >< 12kg for 1 yr old ++ is abit too heavy and he insist I carry him >< Love him so much and felt like kidnapping him XD

Hee. I seriously love kids alot. Wonder if next time my kids will be as adorable as them? :) We shall see :)

Sometimes I’ve got a ‘life’ because I live everyday with the fullest; going out after work, meeting friends, having dinner, singing, playing etc. Other times when I’m having my gloomy days, I don’t feel like going out. Not even for dinner. That’s me. Surprisingly, I’m fine being alone. Not lonely I supposed but just having a ME time.

When my hormones acted up, I just feel like disconnecting from the world and go somewhere people won’t be able to reach me, a place that’s not my home. I always love to dream about travelling to places of interests. But in the picture, all I see is just me. But occasionally I saw myself happily with friends.

When life gets a little bit tougher, all those random thoughts appear in my mind again. But well, life’s a bitch. I need to be a slut to tackle this bitch.

/random thoughts again.

Another one into my collection :D

A surprise early delivery :) Fast and efficient from Gmarket seller.

TADA! It's instax 210! Wide film polaroid! I know I've one already but still, I couldn't resist this kind of cammie! :D

This is the super bulky cammie! But it's okay, as long as it can print out wide film! :D Super happy on a weekend!

soaring high into the sky

Can't wait for 买东西吃东西买东西吃东西！Few days later you will see a super PUI kia :P

面对

勇敢过自己这一关。就能海阔天空

重逢

再一次。。

争气一点！

Love you

Rainie's new drama - Love you.

Only watched episode 1. As usual, her acting is always so much exaggerated than the storyline. Kind of disappointed with TW shows nowadays. But since it's Rainie, I shall persevere till the end! A lot commented that Rainie grow fatter? But I like her new hair. Refreshing! :D

But I still prefer 犀利人妻 though. WEN SHEN HAO! HAHAHA.

Can't wait for a short getaway~~ :D:D:D:D:D

It's the mid May now. Time flies. I'm into my last stage of exam. :D 9 more days to freedom. University exam is really different from poly exam. It gave me the tension but not to the point of stress. In fact, I didn't feel much stress for the first 2 papers but MSM was seriously horrible and I was panicking like an ass even outside the exam hall. Probably I wanted to score well for that module so much that the stress has been overwhelming to me. Theory has been always my weakness. But I guess God has answered my prayers and has been watching over me. At least my theory can secure me some marks. Just hope everything will go well for the calculation part.

Went to cousin's house today. The whole family came back from Taiwan last night. Excited much as he told us about the things over there. Envy and we decided to go bkk in June! :D Planning in process though :D but there's some problem cause there's only 3 of us. Will be asking bestie if she mind going with us.

清明节

Alot of thoughts were running through my mind this afternoon. Met up with my maternal side and 扫墓. This wasn't my first time paying respect to the ancestors but somehow I felt our generation wasn't keen to know the traditional custom. For me, I only observe silently and see from far. Dad was right. My generation is too pampered. We are always being spoon feed. If one day when our parents are no longer able to lead us, who will? I think we will be at lost. Maybe in future there won't be 清明节 anymore. Which the probability is high. Sad but true.

I'm trying my best to go for such stuff and learn along the way. I don't want to lose this tradition and hope it will still pass down generations after generations and not end in our hands. It's time to do something about it. Next year, I'm gonna be involved for both side.

Just today, my mum's cousin saw the traditional kueh that my mum made in the morning. She was amazed and surprised that there's still people able to make. I'm proud to say, only my dearest mum know how to make in the whole family. It really makes me think alot and value the importance of the tradition. Sorry, today's post is more of reflection for myself. I hope there's people out there with the same thought as me. Hope this tradition will remain since we are Chinese!

-Blog from iPhone

Still, there's people there.

Yesterday was my Lunar Birthday and sweet cousin actually remembered it and smsed me :D Mummy cooked mian xian for me and dump in 9 meatballs just because I requested for meatballs. -.- Ohwell, I'm officially 21.

So today, Mel came over to my house to bake choc macarons! It's half success :D and the taste was awesome! Though not that close to bakerzin taste, but still, it's home made awesomenesssssss! Even bro loves it. But my attempt at making scones abit fail. Abit bland I would say. But still, I love baking! :D

Alot of people told me how awesome my birthday party was, and I'm glad that people enjoyed my birthday party as much as I did. Some even smsed a long sms to thank me for my effort. Really made my day. Mum was telling me today that my relatives love it too and she couldn't forget the fun times spent at the chalet. How touched! :D

At the very least, I'm glad my effort didn't go down the drain. They were appreciative of my effort especially BINGO. HAHA. Guess I'm the trend settler for the game. Will be blogging about my birthday sooooooon. Real soooon. Stay tune.

Is that what they said telepathy?

It's either my intuition or I'm overly smart that the site I visited has updated.

Today (Monday) marks the start of my mugging. Mugged with Shi Hui and co. Had lots of fun in between cause there's too many restrictions and we were complained few times!

Life's pretty much boring.

wakeup > eat> study > nap> wakeup > gym> sleep

The routine goes on and on except sometimes when there's tuition, no gyming. meaning no astroboy~~ yan jing tang guo :(

Shit happens

I promised not to cry anymore after that day. I know it's not worth it. I should keeep up with changes. Yes, I will be brave. I will stay brave. I will be happy. I won't be ugly but pretty forever. Now I left 2 more mins to think before I let go of everything and everything.

Prebirthday Preparation

2 more days and it will be my 21st birthday party. So how do I feel? A couple of days ago I was feeling very excited as there will be alot of friends and relatives celebrating with me on this special day, special year. But as days passed, my anxiety level rose up. From excitement, to fear, to stress and to frustration.

Prebirthday preparation has been tough. Really a tough one. For I have to cope with prelims and coordination of stuff, I wasn't feeling good. Emotionally stressed and exhausted. I made an attempt to sign up for gym to force myself to exercise, hoping that I would look good during my birthday party. And now, I've trained myself till the point that I can close my eyes while running! I admit, going gym does make me feel lighter and probably I've toned up abit especially on my thigh but I didn't lose weight at all! Demoralising but No choice.

But nevertheless, I still enjoy the process of searching for things, having great companion to help me out and cracking my brain thinking what to do for birthday. Alice in the wonderland has been the most desired theme that I wanna have but I think it is hard to dress up for that theme so in the end I chose Mad hatter's party! :D I'll be the Alice for the night :D

The journey has been tough and I'm glad to see a glimpse of the finishing line. Sincerely thanks to all my beloved friends who made an attempt to ask me how's the preparation and offering of help to accompany me buy some materials and dress.

Of course, I was upset with some. Expectation I would say that disappoint me. But I know, those who care for me are the ones who have been with me all these years. :) Not forgetting, some of my uni friends :D

Thanks~~

Look forward to my birthday! Now's time to sleep! Having a paper later!

MY WISH LIST BIRTHDAY WISH LIST

My birthday is round the corner. Many of my friends have been asking for my wishlist. So here’s a list that I have drafted out. NOTE: This is a wish list for myself. Need not necessary get for my birthday. :) I guess the list would help many people :)

My Wish List / Birthday Wish List

• Moschino Watch: Let’s quack
• DKNY/AX Watch
• Burberry wallet / bag / wristlet
• Agnes B wallet/ Bag
• G12
• D7000
• iPad
• iPhone 5
• Macbook Pro
• LV coin pouch
• Tiff & Co Bangles
• Perfume
• Handbag
• Clutch
• Cosmetics
• Accessories
• Bracelet

Things try to AVOID getting for me

#1 Soft Toy

#2 Chocolate

#3 Ornaments

I realised after listing down, I DO HAVE a lot of things which I've yet to get for myself.

PS. Some stuff that I want are quite STEEP. It's okay not to follow as it's my wish list for me to achieve in the next 3 years. (hopefully)

MY new pairs of shoes ready for CNY! :D In 1hr plus time, it will be the year of rabbit! hope it will be a BETTER year for me. At least a smooth one for me please!

My HDD crash and I visited lenovo service centre a few times this week. Very tiring and even went to airport to study while waiting for my OS to be loaded into the lappy. Ohwell at least now my lappy's okay. BUT just now I experienced blue screen of death -.- hopefully it will be okay.

Hope tml will be a good day. No provoke, no bad stuff, just good things :D

Crazy little thing call love

There’s a movie that I wanna introduce to everyone. It’s a Thai romance movie call ‘First Love’.

Have a look at the trailer! It’s super nice. I watched it last night and I teared. I seriously admire the girl’s determination. The power of love! If only I’m like that. Best is the guy likes her too! :D mutual feelings!

Actually, I kinda like my life now. Singlehood. When you’re single, you’re not restricted to anything and there’s no obligation. BUT! Even though I’m not tied to anyone now, my personal time is diminishing faster than when I was attached. How irony. My friends always asked me why I do not have much time? Other than working and schooling which didn’t take up much of my time, I don’t know what I did most of the time. This is bad, but I’m loving it, more than anything.

For now, I shall enjoy my singlehood!

I saw my cute ex-crush that day. My heart was pounding very fast. I don’t know why I reacted that way. Still the cute guy I know. :D

Yet another day

Back with another post. So today’s second day of new dyed and cut hair. Bestie couldn’t recognize me initially. I thought that was good, in a way. It means I have changed quite a bit, probably cause of my hair color. Just that I hate my fringe now. Something that I’ve learnt: DO NOT cut hair when it’s nearing CNY because the hair dresser anyhow cut my hair. Too much demand, too little supply. -.- I felt cheated after cutting.

But anyway, it wasn’t that bad after all. At least my hair’s much neater. Some thought I rebonded my hair. But hey! My hair’s naturally straight! Can save money on rebonding, fortunately. CNY is just round the corner and I’ve yet do much spring cleaning. I’m gonna shop for a high waist shorts to go along with my top. :D

Anyhow, recently I’ve been irritated when people tried to twist my words or tried to outtalk me. I don’t like and because of this, I will drift away from the person. But that’s temporary only. Probably I was in foul mood and people start to step onto my toes. Which make it even worst for me. Whatever.

Today I let out some stuff. At least it’s a load off my chest. Sharing some burden doesn’t seem to be that bad after all. Sometimes I’m really envy those who can have platonic friends. It doesn’t seem to have fate with me. I always wanted to have that someone who can understand me very well without me saying. But it’s very hard to find one, and I won’t give up finding that special someone to be my platonic friend.

My passion for blogging is back. A place where I can pour out my stuff and seek shelter. A place to rant and rant and rant.

That’s all for today!

MIA-ed

Is it just me or what? Everytime when I reach this page, nothing seems to be coming out from my mind. I always wanted to blog but somehow I will back space everything that I typed.

These few days have been ups and downs. I’ve done a lot of soul searching too. Eg, what I want in life, what I should do from now on, how can I help my family, birthday planning and some other personal stuff.

All in all, I’ve come down to a conclusion: take a step at a time. It’s bad, for someone like me without plans but the more I think, the more upset I am. Rather than worrying about things that do not have solution right now, I should enjoy my life more isn’t it? School has been keeping me away from friends. Somehow I dislike this feeling. Yet school is another place for me to avoid some stuff.

And people, sorry if I’ve been neglecting you these days. It’s unintentional. I didn’t want it this way but probably I need a break from everyone and last weekend was a good break for me. Had a great time with family, buying CNY goodies with mommy that made her happy and even shopped for CNY clothes with my brother. Also, a short meet up with tingting was simply splendid. :D Lots of fun in fact especially going to bazaar to find Mel and co.

I’m determined to stay happy and not thinking so much on my part. :D

XLB Buffet was ________. I would never touch it for at least 6 months. Dreadful I would say though I only ate like 10? The rest had more than me!

On a lighter note, my CNY shopping was great! I’ve gotten some clothes that I’m pretty satisfied and of course, a wedges and a pair of sandals that I like a lot. Bro also think it’s nice. :D So I hope this year would be a good one for me and for everyone else!

Few days’ time, you will see the Happy Chai Leng again! (Provided my mood isn’t affected by anyone which happened just last week. )

When I’m down,

When I’m sad,

When I need an ear,

When I’m troubled,

When I’m on the verge of crying,

When I’m about to give up,

When school’s not cool afterall,

When life doesn’t seem to go on the way I want,

I’ll look at it – The photo that brings me joy. The photo that makes me think I’m not alone. And this is the photo that will bring me through my tough times.

Physically or mentally, I know there are people around me who care for me. I sincerely thank those who care about me. Thanks!

P.S. Today's kind of emotional because I've talked to someone and I felt _________.

Accurate or not?

After much procrastinating, I finally give in to this special date, 11.1.11 to start my first post of the year. I made a wish this morning during work. I know I’m acting like a little girl, believing in all those myth foolishly. But nevertheless, I still made a small wish. Hope it will come true, somehow. :D

During work today, my colleagues were printing their feng shui slip. Out of curiosity, I went to fill in my birthday and time of birth. It’s actually our 8 characters. As one of my colleagues, CT, knows a bit about feng shui, he explained to us patiently and individually what our sign means. Somehow mine’s quite true, especially family part. As for studies, I do know that I’ve a hidden gift for doing well but apparently, this year is the year of rabbit. Somehow it might not be very smooth for me.

As for career wise, it’s fairly good I would say. I’m in control of my own career. That’s the best thing I love to hear. :D side track a bit, during lunch I saw this building with the name, ‘Ogilvy & Mather’. That’s the company that I wanna work in future! I was so excited because it’s so near to my current company! I shall work hard towards that goal then!

CT also describe well to my personality. :D My luck’s good too and as long as I have support from people, I would be able to succeed which is very true. Another fact that he saw from the characters is being vain. I guess that’s really true.

As for love, I’ve many peach blossoms. LOL. He said my future hubby and I would be very loving. It would be smooth sailing BUT it comes with a flaw too. He might be either a police or baddie. Since my 卯 is side by side, I’ll have 2 guys fighting over me! (LOL). Don’t know how true is that though.

Well, I will take the readings with a pinch of salt and sharing with everyone who read my blog in case I forget about it. HAHA.

Till then!