YEAH! Evan Almighty is a nice movie! watched it with dear after work and I made him waited for me and I'm so guilty! SORRY DEAR! and initially i wasn't feeling well and I didnt eat much and didnt have lunch either so I felt giddy.

anyway, dear said I laughed until very scary. LOL. thats how I laugh!HAHAs. engine start then cant stop one! X) laughing is the best medicine though =/

okays. So went back to dunearn with the 6girls. phuishan, li xia, wan ting, sandra, cherie and yongbing. of course our main motive is to see MR KAAN!! and we saw him! saw other teachers too like Mr Nick Lee, Mdm Zahara, Mr Ng, Mr Rani and Xu lao shi! hahas. crap alot with them. enjoying the talking sessions.

lunch time! Mr Kaan treat Us to Nasi Briyani(dont know how to spell) but i dont like that so I didnt eat. only drank milo(: took pix with Mr kaan and girls but the pix with ting. saw alot of peeps. and after so long, I finally saw the JCs peeps! hahas. serene, bindy, jody, joel, chuan yew, benjamin etc. Whoos.

school didnt change much except for the teachers. Missed the times at school and even the bookshop auntie remember us! it's like.. WOW! lols. oh yes Mr Lee, we would still come back next yr okay? really!! and xu lao shi, I would remember what you've said to us today! jin yu liang yan(golden words).

talked to Mr Kaan with ting and I suggested a class gathering on december. Mr Kaan was delighted and quite enthu actually and he gave us his number to contact him! I bet he really like our class! He's rather a sentimental man okay? dont see him like that but he's nice and kind man! =X

Finally had a nice gathering with the girls. yeah. silly phuishan. crazy girl. lols. fun with them. somehow, with ting and sandra, the feel is not there. drifted apart I guess(it's me to ting to san. they two are in good terms.(: ) but let's hope it'll not remain like that. think positive! cause I've learn to let go! I felt more relax now as I never think much about these stuffs anymore. life has to go on(: definitely I would meet other similar cases in future! I'm ready to face it!
yes chai leng, you can do it! =D

BUT, some people are very FAKE. shall not say further. didnt change a bit at all. none of my business anyway.

anyway, left with ting and sandra cause 3 of us are working. took 187 and alight at phoneix. silly me. I took the wrong bus! instead of taking 190, I took 180! damn it! @#$%^&* but i saw netball juniors! seok ting they all! hahas. chat with them for a short while and girls! jiayou for your exam! I'm sure you all can do it just like when you all are on court!

worked from 2.05pm-6.20pm. and jennifer was frustrated of certain stuffs. yay and as a result, I'm late cause she check my stuffs and brief me on what to do on monday.

this is a very long post. hahas. and tml's meeting dear again.maybe watching rata...movie also.yay! but i haven tell mum. shit. dont know what to say. ahh.

when I missed my friends..
sandra- I would drink peach tea for it's her all time fave.
wan ting-green tea! although I like too but when i miss her i would drink.
look at the photos taken for the past few years.. I'm a sentimental person too~ cheezecake reminds me of Mr Kaan!
emo is associated with yanying. LOLs.
skirt reminds me of jiaoni. heehs.

I still misses sec2 life. and the times with serene's clique. although sometimes I'm unhappy, but nevertheless, I'm still glad there's a ceng jing(past).

lot1 is full of memories. =X

back from my work. 2nd day of work and i work 2hr20mins of OT.hehes. and I make new friends today. at least somehow it's better than yesterday when I was isolated with guys. and i didnt went for lunch because of that but today I had subway and subway cookies is nice. double choc. omg. FATS. gain a lot.

tml's to dunearn with phuishan wanting and others. and I'm going to find alot of teachers and I miss a teacher very much! Mr kaan! whoos. he sure do have a lot to comment about us. =] after tht will be chionging to work and wait for dear to fetch me home! =]

其实我只是一个普通的女孩，需要被呵护，被宠的。而我已经找到了，就是DEAR！=]

I'm in the office now. and I've just came back from subway. lunched with jennifer(executive and a nice lady), wanru, dean and another american.

they are nice. and make me feel comfortable. hehes. =] at least it's better than my first day. cause i was alone. and didnt had my lunch as a result.

well, powerpoint is my favourite now. AS IF. lols. alright. blog sometimes ltr.

dear, thanks for being there for me. I'm so touched by you. your action made me feel so ... warmth. iloveyou.

my tears for you are worth it.

whoos. BACK! I received alot of calls today!!!! and alot of people ask me about jobs. hahahs. I'm finally going to work tml cause I've found a job. omg. it is a mnc company. hahahas. HOPEFULLY nothing bad would happen. Hope it wont cheat me or what. CHOY!

hmms. dear went to work already. yeah. tml after work then find him again. HAHAs. and since i'm working tml onwards, I guess our time spent will be lesser. but it's okays. just have to bear with it for 6weeks. =]

JIAYOU! GOOD LUCK TO ME!

nothing better to do so I do programming since I have wrote down the codes in my previous entry. Enjoy!! =))


design the userinterface already and did the codes all within 15mins. simple one. not complicated. okays. So, this is the window



select the employed button


after that press display button, Messagebox appeared! "Money is on the way and chai leng is HAPPY!"


if select unemployed, and press display button, messagebox show again. "She's DEAD"


if never select anything, or trying to be funny and click on the display button, messagebox will show "Please make a selection".

LOLs. I'm lame. IF i really everyday never work and rot at home, I think I will flood my own blog and do those stupid things. HAHAs.

C# rocks man. =))

damn sian. the HR manager didn't call me = no chance = no job = no money = DIE! I've been emailing my resume for the past 2-3 days okays. email until I wanna to give up. I guess tml I shall buy newspaper and search for jobs. BOO! IF no good news, I think, I better go bang the wall. Like that better.

Labour Force = people aged 15 and above. (I'm eligible)
LF is divided into 2, EMPLOYMENT AND UNEMPLOYMENT
So, I'm considered unemployed person cause I'm still searching for jobs.

Next, am I voluntarily unemployed or involuntarily unemployed?
Think it's involuntarily? But I think it's half half. =)) cause I want to find a better job. =))
AHH. WHATEVER.

after that, I will become DISCOURAGED WORKER and DISCOURAGED EFFECT will occur.
therefore, I dropped out of LABOUR FORCE. UNEMPLOYmENT UNDERSTATED!
LOL!
I'm applying my macroecons concept. Never did I know that I would become discouraged worker. X)) I guess only ppl who studied MACROECONS then wil understand what I mean?
LOLS!

LF>UE>IUE>DW>dropped out of LF

Therefore,

private void resultButton_Click()
if (chaiLengIsEmployedRadioButton.Checked)
{
MessageBox.Show("Money is on the way and chai leng is HAPPY!","GOOD NEWS", MessageBoxButtons.Ok, MessageBoxIcon.Information);
}
else
{
MessageBox.Show("She's DEAD","R.I.P",MessageBoxButtons.Ok,MessageBoxIcon.Warning);
}

private void exitButton_Click()
//Exit the program
this.Close();

HEHEHS. used PBA concepts. damn boliao. nothing to do. and this is driving me crazy. AHH

anyway, I went to dear's house just now. HAHAHS. I'm late because I need to wait for mum to reach home 1st. and she said maybe tml we're going to catch a movie-881. whee. So long nv watch movie already. ever since dear and I bankrupt. X)

well, dear, sorry if I made you angry just now. hehes. must learn to forgive and forget. =]
and, I did give in a lot to you! because of you, I have to carefully find a job that suits your schedule. X)

wishh me good luck for tml. hope someone reply to my email or called me or whatever-shit. I want a job!!! damn sad. RAHHS. and ah mei jie jie, I'm waiting for your good news!

我不想逃避了。明明知道结局会是这样而当初为什么又若无其事的样子呢? 我不否认我很不甘心，而且打从一开始就已经知道事情的后果。但是，我却让自己陷入困境。会有这种局面也是因为我的刁蛮任性，一直都无法好好的面对这件事。整天一直在萎缩。我不要再想那么多，现在的我应该好好努力读书，做好我的本分，那就够了。

我已经选择放弃了，或许这是个明确的选择？可能有些人会觉得我是个懦夫，但是对我而言，是最大的帮助。
这样也好，不必为一些事情而烦恼，掉了许多眼泪，也不会胡思乱想。
很多事情是因为时间的关系而造成的，因为不充足的时间在一起，所以引起了误会。
该发生的事终究会发生。不管你怎么赖还是会发生。不属于你的就不是你的，就算你能一时的握紧它，以后它也会走的。是避免不了的事。就像勉强的婚姻是不会有幸福的。

现在的我是比较轻松了。Dear， 我想通了。you should know what I mean. =]

就把它当成是一个梦吧！很美好的梦。
我会忘掉伤心的事，记住美好的回忆。

didnt manage to blog yesterday cause I was tired. well, yesterday I went to bp to collect my customize diary. loves! really love it. thanks Girl!!! after that, I went to lot 1 to meet sharine to buy present for kelly-her 21st birthday. =)) We chose and sniff and dont know what until I cant even smell the fragrance. after the assistance of the salesgirl, FINALLY! we manage to buy the perfume and went to buy card. saw ting at popular.

after that, we went to her house. yeahh. HER PARTY. whoos. HAHAHS. AND SHE GOT ALOT OF PRESENT AND ANG PAU!!!!! so envy. wonder if my 21st birthday will receive alot of present? hmms. anyway, her house was FULL of relatives and BABIES. lotsa BABIES coming on the way. lols. and cousins are getting married. which means BABIES are on the way. =]

CAMWHORING with my cousins! didnt maange to get the pics from kelly but I guess at night or what thn get from her and can post it here. (:

champion for campus superstar are shawn and keely respectively. But overall champion is shawn. actually this year is kinda SIAN. dont know why and benjamin.. HAIZ. didnt get in. but it's okays. He has perform well!!!!

and yesterday is SATURDAY. 2nd time didnt meet up with dear. kinda weird. BUT BUT BUT tml I'll be meeting him!! yuppy!!! can meet him! **misses.

well, I've asked ah mei jie jie to help me find office work. yeah. and hopefully she can get back to me asap. if possible tml or tue. I'm despo of jobs!!!!

yesterday jiaoni called me and told me about the interview thingy. damn scary alrights. apparently they msg me at around 6plus and sent me address which i dont even know where the hell it is but i know it's ulu places for sure. she said it's a mode agency or something and luckily they msg and called me so I told them not to be cheated. must be careful of those people. MODEL agency leh. and I told them model agencies are not supposed to be ulu places. she describe to me the place. there are houses that look errie. Well, I told them if they are unfamiliar about the place and the place seems to be ulu, just dont go. moreover, It's far eh. She said she got tell jinghan. She dont know why jinghan still wanna go. OMg.

when they enter the building, she was quite scared.and the place is very spooky and she said the old man was pervertic. the windows are all black. OMFG. and she said the place is very dirty. hmms. she said maybe today jinghan gonna call police or what. have to consider and straighten out their thoughts first. damn SCARY!!!!!!! but jiaoni, dont worry. at least you all are fine now eh.

anyway, I dont know why yesterday morning when I woke up to press my dad's alarm, I suddenly cant see anything. As if I'm blind. and i was very scared. somemore i felt very giddy. dont know why. and I couldnt stand properly. around 10sec later, then I can see and regain my consciousness. I dont know whats wrong with me. omg.

jiaoni, this is the diary!! show you the other one next time!! loves!! my personalised diary. thanks sinkuan!!

boyy, I miss you. When I saw my cousin's cousin with her bf, I thought of you. and you're watching 881 with your mum today eh? enjoy. (: tml's the day! (:

BACK! freezingly cold. anyway, morning woke up at 7am. -.- and prepared to meet jiaoni and jinghan at woodlands. I'm the last to reach but I wasn't late. Is they early. =X HAHAHs. we waited for the supervisor to come. and she came only at 11am I think or later (WHEN WE REACHED THERE AT 9.40AM. -.- ) then talked with the 2 of them. It's fun talking with them. We gossip alot and laughed alot. after waiting, the supervisor finally came and I talked to her about the HR things and after that, I went off without them.



Took 913 to the interchange before changing to cab. Didnt manage to catch any cab at the Student care centre. Well. it was raining quite heavy today and I was very very cold. -.- and finally REACHED dear's house. WHOoS.



He was sleeping when I reach his house okay. What a PIG he is. ><

and NOW, I'm left alone. cause dear at friend's house "swimming"(mahjong). eh dear, Good luck to you eh and must win alot of money lehhs. I will be waiting here to collect money from you!><

anyway, I came across a blog of an auntie. actually she's a mediacorp artist. I bet you all have seen her before. She's the one acting in the Just follow law, Fann wong's mother in the movie. one of her post made me think alot. she's right. elderly have the rights to learn new things to upgrade themselves. I thought that's what government encourage? She did upgrade herself by attending computer course etc. Now, She even have a blog like us, the young ones. Some people questioned in her blog whether she's real or fake? actually, does it matter? she pointed out something right. If she said it was her who post all the entries etc, would anyone believe cause she's already so old? and there would be conflicts. something very important is that when the reporters asked her for the truth, she merely asked them,

"Is there a law stating that I must be the one typing and uploading my blog? Is there a law stating that I cannot seek help if I want to own a blog? Am I wrong to do so?"

I dont think she's wrong. some people are just out to create trouble. Well, as what she said, if she didnt upgrade herself, she would be eliminated by the society which is true. the world is all asking for skills, experience and certs. If you do not have the up-to-grade skills, you cant get anywhere. This is all facts.

her blog: http://laozharbor.blogspot.com
if you wanna go visit, feel free but if you dont like her can just scram off.

ohya. I was frustrated just now because of my resume. DAMN it. I sent quite a few of my resume to the companies and 3 of them responded. I thought I've stand a chance or something or I have failed or something. To my horror, they said they cant view my resume and asked me to save as MS WORD which i have done so. but in 2007 format. after that, I changed to 1997-2003 format. just pray hard that some of them would be working tml and would be able to see my resume that I have revise just now.

Monday I'm not working cause the HR manager said she will inform me again on monday for my position of part time teacher. As for Jinghan, he has to go down to Dhoby Ghaut on mon. HAHAs. good luck. oh yes, jiaoni, good luck in your interview tml!!! HAHAHS. I will drop by some day when I go plaza. =X and hopefully, I can secure an admin position. If not, the part time teacher. I think I have to ask my cousins for help.

tml's going to attend Kelly's birthday party! WHOOS. HAppy 21st birthday! hope you will enjoy.

quite a long entry today. got alot of things to say. HAHAs.
and dear, when I go work next week onwards, I guess I wont have much time to spend with you and I apologise for that in advance. Sorry about that. and seriously, I hate long vacations. cause many problem would arise because of that. RAHH. and I'm sure mum would ground me for going out. She would lock me up one. I really hope I'm 21 now. At least I've more freedom. Greez.

EXAM IS OVER! YEAH.
went to YMCA on my own. -.- bus journey was short. had appointment with the Hr manager. hiaz. she's funny and I'm embarassed. AHH. intro about myself? I dont know what to say either. hahahs.

well. just a short post for today. very tired today. and I have my stress-less day again. but maybe for only 3-5 days. -.-

at dear's house. tada. =]

I dont know whats wrong with the internet and I cant view my blog and others.-.-
well. today went to interview referred by huiling and i made her wait for around 15mins? sorry eh. yes, I'm a part time teacher already! tml's gonna go down to the hq and interviewed with the HR manager.

and tml's last paper. I'm so going to puke. had this bad feeling. dont ask me what. PBA. i love codes. =]

rahh.

headaches again.
dear, I may sleep early cause i finish revision alr

econs paper CLEARED. a pity i didnt manage to complete. actually, I completed but I never write in detailed especially singapore's economy cause I've no time. and I made used of my social studies knowledge to answer that question. :) but guess i won't score for that.

the paper was managable for me. Initially I thought maybe I can get an A. MAYBE. but after the exam, I immediately -.- cause I didnt elaborate = die. RAHHHS. I know how to do!!! but... but .... time management! and tml's POA. some who will find it easy to do, some will die. to me, poa still.. alright. at least not like that @#$%^&*. and my fave paper, PBA, is the last paper. probably I would slack alot and would not study much. =]

I'm always in splitting headache mood. I dont know why either. Just feel like killing my head. WTF. and tml, I can see DEAR already. AHHAHAs.
gonna be off soon. =/ catch some sleep 1st i guess and deargod, please let me have time to do for POA exam tml!!! THANKs! and I want to balance that balance sheet. lols.

HOHOHO! I'm here again. of course, I'm feeling very refreshed(although still got slight headache), and i'm very happy too. =] and i'm going to be HIGH again. WAHHHS.yesterday I didnt online at all. it's a great achievement for me! and I slept at 10.40pm yesterday. cause I was super tired. So I went to sleep and finally, after a few minutes, I manage to fall asleep. although I will wake up in the middle of the night, but still, I had a good rest!!!

18-08-2007(friday)
BMGT DAY. manage to finish but didnt manage to do well. and my 16marks gone because of Hersey&Blanchard Situational Leadership. damn. the exam hall was very cold and i didnt bring my jacket. @#$%^&* monday must remember to bring cause it will be at block 56. WHICH IS DAMN COLD.

after that went to find dear. and it was raining heavily. As i'm this type who would not bring umbrella, of course, I was trapped at the bus stop. and dear said he want to fetch me from the bus stop and i told him not to as i could take another bus. when the bus finally came from USA, (LOLS), and i was damn angry. the funny part is when i alight, at the stairs, I almost slipped and fell. luckily i can balance. if not now i think my front teeth dropped and i will be crying like mad. poor me. yanying rmb? we wore the same slippers and thus, I almost fell.

the whole day was at dear's house. initially i wanted to go out. but after sometimes, I'm damn tired and decided not to go out. intend to go vivo but i back out last minute. although we didnt went out, but the time was well spent i suppose? ya deaR?=]

and I felt that me and dear are.. husband and wife when we went to fairrprice for shopping. ^^ and i manage to stop dear from spending unnecessary stuffs!!!HAHAHAS. dear, you cant get what you want. =X
i just simply love today cause with dear, i have no stress, although we will bicker, it's fun! and makes me forget about the exam this morning. amazing? =X

and now, I'm so going to offline soon. and get started with econs! my fave!! econs econs econs! I love you!
I can only meet dearie on tue, thur and fri. =(
imissyou.

I finally online eh!!! IT's FINALLY i finish MUGGING for BMGT. BMGT really sucks okays. not that i wanna say. It's hard to get my facts right and into my big brain. somehow, i can rmb the details but not the main pt. omg. WHATS WRONG with me man. HAHAHAS.

and so many hours of studying, now i guess i deserve a break. just to come online and check my blog and my blogshop. HAHAHS. and grumble in the blog as well. seriously, i can control myself. I'm so glad anyway. at least i waited until i finish revision then come online. motivate me to study faster. =X but poor result.

Hmms. anyway, yesterday i slept at 12.30am and i woke up at 3.30am. @#$%^&* tried to sleep And i woke up again at 8.05am and decide not to sleep anymore. I'm suffering from insomnia. and it has been very long since i had that. RAHHs. and exam is still ongoing(in a few hours' time), I now dont even have the feeling of tireness. DAMN.

ohno! everyday lazying and sitting down on the chair would make me grow fatter and fatter each day. damn! must start going to gym or something. =))

and now i'm talking to dear on phone. both of us are blogging at the same time. hahhas. and i want to thanks dear, yanying and jiaoni for your concern. thanks for showering me with your concerns. my head's okay now. at least not that pain already. just that i might not be able to sleep in peace. and jiaoni, thanks for sms me today. lols. gambatteh. i think you still studying? hmms. jiayou.

to everyone who is having exam: JIAYOU and dont give up!!!

tml I'm going to find dear. maybe we're going out? off to go now, shall see what dear wrote.!

I'm wasting my time again. yesterday I'm indeed very Guai cause I studied. ECONS NOT BMGT. BMGT sucks to the core okays? and today I've got a splitting headache because of the rain. I was caught in the rain in the morning. thats why I have splitting headache.

some part of my body is kinda.. WRONG. FUNNY. I dont know. I gets abit emo today. this is how it happens

I went to dear's house after fetching my bro to school and i was caught in the rain. actually it's already raining. just that i'm lazy to bring umbrella. yeah. then at dear's house, I tried to sleep but can't. it gets worst when he went to school. I cant even sleep. I keep tossing here and there. until i feel like crying. somemore no one in the house. damn siian.

I get very pek cek and all. So, when dear reached home, my temper aint good and dear, i'm sorry eh. somemore my stomache upset. after eating the porridge, he tried to hug me to sleep. but i still cant. and i cried because i cant sleep and i already felt fatigue. so i ask him to go down buy sour sweet for me. and I'm glad dear bought for me!!!! THANKS MY DEAR!

mood:average>pek cek>emo>cry>fine now.

LOLS. am i suffering from any sickness or whatever? yesterday i was so high. yanying is the witness. lols. ohya. sorry to syimah that i cant accompany her to town yesterday cause i told my mum i'm not going out.

and dear, I'm glad to have you. =))

i woke up damn early today. And i'm really crazy okays? yesterday had splitting headache and now, instead of resting and having ample sleep, I woke up early and went online. -.- and it was fucking early. I dont even know what i can do. maybe watch why why love. rahhs.

few more hours and i could see dear already. =]

and good luck to my dearest brother who is having PSLE oral later on. must remember what jie taught you yesterday. =))

wahhs. Cant believe CHAI LENG actually STARTED studying cause she finally sense the urgency but she guess it's abit too late to realise. Well, AlOT to catch up. SHE's CRAZY TODAY. treated everyone so nice. HEr brain is sot! WHOOS. SHe's helping her brother to prepare his PSLE ORAL tomorrow. So nice of her. She got self controlling anyway. At least she promised herself that she will only come online after 6pm and she made it! WHOOS.

not only that, she also quite happy that she has done some revision. at least something went into her head BUT not BMGT. that's a killing module. saying goodbye to that module. =X she's vexed too cause her friendster got problem. -.-

she earned 20$ for taking survey. whoos. but spent off. =P and the person said to her that she might ask her to be her assistant when she come back to Singapore.whoos.

okays. SHE's missing Mr Dave now. And Mr Dave didnt message her in the afternoon. and she was waiting and waiting until she msg him. and today, she's kinda sot. REALLY. She doesn't have temper today. She's a Ms nice lady today. wonder why.

She's still waiting for Mr Dave to finish work and hopefully, He would automatic call her.

HAPPY 6th MoNTH MY DEAR!
time really passed very fast. In a blink of the eyes, WHOOS. 6 months just passed like that. HAHAHS! although today was not well spent, however, at least me and dear's relationship is getting better, isn't it? =]

went to his dad's house and pay a visit to his dad and grandpa. seriously, his dad was nice. He really made me feel warmth. =] and when he asked me whether dear got ang moh name or not, dear said: wo mei you. then his dad heard: ROMEO?! I laugh like nuts okays? seriously . HAHAHs.

and yesterday, dear gave me the musical box. =] damn happy cause inside the box, got a bottle of stars, inside the stars got the necklace and i really touched that dear made stars for me! thanks my dear. I gave him the wallet too! =] glad that he like it okays? whoos. damn damn happy. no words can describe how i feel that time. (perhaps my vocab is insufficient) whoos. love love!

dear:
we have come thus far, throughout the months, days, hours, mins ans seconds that we spent with each other are precious and definitely, I would not forget what you have contribute and done for me and our relationship. you deserve a BIG KIISS AND HUGS from ME. LOLS!
iloveyou my dear. =]

tml is staying at home and mugged like nuts.
nerdy me for tml! =X

i manage to online only at night! whoos. damn happy. can control. whahahas. what I do the whole day?

WATCHED MAGICIAN OF LOVE. LOLS. REWATCHED SINCE I GOT NOTHING TO DO. and i got alot of 感想。

男人可以为了女人而打架。这种轰轰烈烈的爱情真是。。。。。 我喜欢。
我好像疯了。 =]

可是，男人是世界上最坏的人。因为他们每次让女生伤心难过而又为他们哭。（Except ＦＯＲ　ＤＥＡＲ。）
但是，我还是希望我是电影的女主角。看起来好像好幸福哦。

DEAR，我们也这样好不好？=X

hahas. tml. will be a good day! =]

current mood: sian-ness.

well. today was well spent. =] watched rush hour 3 with dear. damn nice. i admit, it's nicer than secret. =/ anyway, met up with another seller and swapped my stuffs with hers. whoos. my black and red spag. lols. but i put it at dear's house eh. hahhas.

and dear, I'm so sorry just now eh. really sorry. too pressurized. hahas. and now i'm okays. and thanks for protecting me from the cockroaches! lols.~ and you promised my necklace given to me on tue eh? =X

short post today and guess, tml I will really start my revision. which one shall i start with?

at causeway point!

oh damn. i hate my com. @#$%^&* 1st, i was browsing through some blogs and suddenly all the window closed at once! @#$$%^&&* nvm. next, when i was tagging at yanying's blog, as i was typing, something pop up. and says"runtime error" and everything close! OMG! damn frustrated and reminds me of C#. damn.

and i have yet study for my exam. especially BMGT whiich is near. and tml i'm going out again. wahh. my study time is gone, again. Well, it's okays cause i'm out with dear. =] loves!

hopefully i'm not grounded tml. scared. ><
alrights. got to go soon. and dear's working. I 'm left alone with bro and his friend cause mum went out with my 4th aunt. =/

current mood: tired. but happy.

whoos. HAPPY NATIONAL DAY! had fun today with dear. it was like.. he spent $300+ today. omfg. cause he bought one necklace for 199 @ SK jewellry. and he bought precious moment's musical box for me! and i'm damn happy that a guy would buy precious moment stuffs for me. happy! of course! and it's sooo sweet of him!love you lots!

we went to cathay cineplex to watch secret. hehes. the show, okays. in the beginning is a bit boring. but at the later part still not bad! yeah. and after that we went to marina. but the crowd really @#$%^&*! and fucking so many bangalas! and damn squeesy. dear have to hold me tight. and the bangalas kept looking at me. -.- and dear was trying to protect my b****. lols. but ended up we never watched the firework. we cabbed home instead. =]

and my necklace was not yet given to me cause dear said he wanted to do something 1st. wonder what will it be? lols. looking forward. and dear, don't worry. I will never let you go unless you let go of my hands. you'll never be alone again. I will always be there for you. I will watch movie with you and accompany you and celebrate with you for any ocassion. you'll never be alone! I swear! our 6th month is coming..

and to jiaoni, don't be sad anymore. yeah? I'll be there for you. sorry ah. I din know you're sad yesterday. wanted to call you but I'm too lazy. and if I called you, I guess you'll be able to feel better? hms. but if you really very sad, can call me. I'll be there. what are friends for? =] sometimes friends can't be put to a test because of time. normally we were defeated because of time. and the place. and the people. environment.many many. so don't get sad over it eh? I understand how you feel. and thanks for accompany me on monday. and yanying, wanna join us on monday for a trip? shopping sprees.

here are the pictures!

pic with simpson! 1st time felt so small. lols.

precious moments! my love.

the necklace. but this is the outside only. lols.

I really hope I could turn back the clock

mood: sian-ness, sleepy and sadness.

have not felt SAD for quite sometime. and I'm sad now. I dont know how to say. and I dont't wish to say much here. I'm not emo. I'm just.. sad. and disappointed I guess. and dear's right. emo is just an excuse for us. to have the power to exert out everything. it has been @#$%^&* since I smile.? I lost my smile. I wanna find back my smile. where's my smile?

I may look cheerful on the surface but where has my real smile gone to? I'm not that happy afterall. and I shouldnt be like this when I have a choice to be a happy person. Sometimes, I just wanna to have someone to talk to. not the person to talk to me. I want the person to hear what I wanna say. Not the person say about their own happenings.

and friday. I guess all plans are cancelled. my initial plan of studying is gone cause I've got no mood. and thought might go out somehow, but ended up never. should I jio her out? or maybe I should just be a guai kia stay at home and my mum would be damn happy.

I told yanying that sometimes, a bf can't be a substitute for a friend no matter how loving you two are or how stable or understanding you two are. Sometimes, friends can't replace bf and vice versa. I know dear has been supportive of me and I'm happy to have him. but sometimes, I really hope that I can go out shopping with the friends that I wanna hang out with, people who I wanted to gossip with etc. and when you realised that things can't turn the clock back, it's over.

chai leng, tml will be a better day cause everyday with dear is always a happy day. and tml will be even great since we all are going to watch secret(confirm) and see fireworks. and I would enjoy myself. hope my smile will be back.

I know we can never be like before.

okays. fun day? went to jurong east in the afternoon and met yanying and jiaoni. ate lunch @ japanese cuisine. after that, we went to the library. was supposed to StUDY but as you can see, if 3 girls are together, what's the result? of cause can't study eh. and it's like @#$%^&* years since we talked and get together with the proper 3 of us. and our 1st proper date is today! of cause we decided not to study. walked around the library and proceed to the JE.

we brought jiaoni to the arcade. whoos. played the hit thingy with them. taught jiaoni how to play. have fun. but i hit too hiong already. my lil finger got blister. =] and ah ying pangseh us arnd 5. yeah. so me and jiaoni went to imm to walked arnd and dine there and went to dear's house. sorry dear. i'm late. really sorry. didn't mean it actually.

today is a gossipping day and 3 person of different fashion sense, different taste different blah blah blah can be good friends anyway. we talked alot and we even talked about daydreamers! me and jiaoni dont like those who stone while we are talking and they would huh? when they realised there's no talkings anymore. lols.

alright. tml is kboxing day with ting and san. hehes. yupps. will enjoy my self. =]
and after that is the secret movie(maybe) with dear.

suiyoubi karaoke o shimasu.soshitei eiga o mimasu. =]

dear dear, i'll be puncture!

There is this person who send me a message and was damn gross. and said something about horny thingy. and ask me if i'm wearing netball skirt or whatever. people, please beware of this person in friendster!!!!!!he's a pervert.

BCA is over. No more excel. I'm so glad. and I did fairly badly this time. as expected but i think it's because of the teacher and the computer. the teacher ate our time and the computer's sot. ah. whatever. can't grief over it. my A is gone. GPA no more 4point. =(


morning went to dear's house and watched wei xiao pasta with him. ahahas. so long didn't watch. but nice drama eh!!! =] this is the greatest addiction. X) wasn't feeling well the whole afternoon. went to school after watching wei xiao pasta. paid camp fees and all.


I'm sorta sian half when I finish the paper. but nevermind. WORKED HARD. WU GUI DE LI LIANG DA! =] dear should know=] and he keep saying I pui pui. sobs. ='(


oh ya.when I was on the bus, I suddenly thought alot of things. the times I have when I was working and i offended a lot of people. for instance, a gang of thai girls went into my shop and I glared at them. somehow, one of them DONT like me and I DONT too. so we stared at each other. and they keep asking me to take this and that of cause i'm MAD. yay. then payment, she used visa. obviously visa is used for signature right? normally not for nets. but.. she scream at me. damn. yeah, then i gave her attitude. got another case with malaysian ladies. even worst. damn. don't wish to elaborate

am talking to jiaoni now. =] talked alot. hehes.

and i'm kinda sad about someone. really disappointed. don't really wanna say. shall post next tym.tml's going to JE with jiaoni and yanying. =] study study study!

I'm miisssiiinggg dear so muchh. dear, hope you like today. =] and i love today!!!

blog hoping just now and i realised there's alot of people preparing for exam etc. and they said they simply just hope to pass that module or subject. but what i'm thinking is that, what for to pass a subject or module if you know you can do better? sometimes, on the surface, people said they wanted to pass and they would be contented but actually, they don't. they wanted to score as high as possible. what the fuck man?

and i think aiming for high expectation is good. it's true. at least you would have the determination to study. and might produce a frutiful result. and when you see your friends getting higher score than you, of course you will feel abit.. stupid and jealous and envy when they score well while you dont.this is just human nature. everyone will surely experience this. even i do. seriously.

for me, if i want to, I would rather score well than just to pass. if not, i rather flunk the paper. that's me. seems arrogant or something but that's how i view it. different people have different perceptions. I'm different. somehow, being too ambitious ain't good cause you may not get the result that you want. and too much of confidence will lead you nowhere.

how many people would actually do according to their plan? none. or maybe a few. for me, i really wanted to do well on my exams but. i ddint do it. I only said it but there's no action taken because of one word: LAZY. if i'm hardworking enough, I would be studying now instead of blogging. yes, I only look at the past yr paper. and i didnt even bothered to find out what's this and that. the ones that I dont know. and i wondered how tml? pray hard to score? no way.

well.I shall stop my crap now. and off to REALLY study.
and dear, I'm missing you. tml i will find you no matter what. no matter whether you're working or at home. ^^

I fell asleep when i was studying for bca. and tml's bca. i'm still not prepared yet. oh chaileng, please wake up. don't play anymore. tml's exam and yet you're still watching anime and online shopping? wahhs. i'm kinda absurb. but that's me. i cant feel the sense of urgency. and i cAMe back from binding those worksheets and fell asleep right after starting to study for bca.

here i am watchin the damn anime. but it's nice. loves!and jiaoni! i order the why why love! whoos!

dear's working now. hurhur. boredom.
brb.

I'm damn FAT! i'm a FATSO. RAHHH.

I'm seriously damn fat. each day passed and i realised i kept eating non-stop and am always hungry. ohno! I dont want to grow fat! no way! raHH. FAT eh.

even my bro said I'm FAT. damn. I have alot of fats !!!!!! all the hidden fats are obvious now. RAHH. my waist is gone!!! my thighs are like @#$%^&* and look at my flabby arms!!!! damn!!!

who can help me man? I stop eating! I really hope i can tio eating disorder. then can slim down. lols.

fat fat fat!

dear say because got him, that's why I'm fa fu(happiness). -.-

NO!!! faster, i want to slim down! no time to exercise man.

tt21! purest day. a bonded class. lols.




in serpia. i love this! damn nice!





book frame. this mark our history! those DC boyy, piink boyy or whatever are inside! X)

today, marks the "end" of TT21. it's kinda sad that we ain't in the same class for the next sem anymore. unless we all agreed to go to the same class. but diff people want diff timing. well, shall see how. WHite day. tt21, full of "angels" but actually they are all crappy peeps. yesterday was our bonded day. i guess, in msn, people would crap and all, but in reality, they dont talk much. that's our class.


and how about our class tee? yanhua how? and we should really planned where to go after exam. cause we all may not be in the same class anymore and i really hope the majority of us would contact each other when we separate. RAHHH.


okays. exams are coming. and bca is next mon. i didnt prepare anything at all. i dont know. no motivation to study. how i wish mrs ng would bbe here to nag at me. at least she can motivate me. X)

edited one of the pix. hahas. different frame only. kinda busy just now. was busying printing my notes. trying to compile alot of things. yeah. next wed will be going to kbox with the clique again! hopefully wont cancel. =X sorry phuishan, didnt go for your bbq this sun cause my exam on mon! gomeinasai.

lols. was doing an interview for shar's friend on blogshops. hahas. hopefully my information would be of help. and tml, we're going to watch movie!!!!!!!!!damn happy. but the secret is not out yet i think. didnt see any time slot except for cathay. which start at 11.40pm. 1.30AM. omg.

well.today after photo takings with tt21 peeps, the girls didnt join them for sim. me neither. i went to find dear instead. his frens were at his house. all NP-ians. -.- <<

whoos. damn looking forward to tml!!!

We the students of tt21,
pledge ourselves to only be gay and les,
to defend this class with all our knowledge and boon as our final resort
to make them go crazy, in language or religion.
so as to achieve AD, AD and more ADs
and progress in our poly!


TT21's pledge. X) aug2, TT21 Day

having mass conversation with tt21 peeps. damn crappy. lols. 1st time eh. was discussing clas outing and class tees. lols.

tt21 peeps are crappy. lols. enjoyed man!

current mood: a great sense of accomplishment!

after so long, ever since don't know how many weeks, i finally can make the video into pix! damn happy eh. our TT21 class photo! GREEn DAY. TT21 rocks eh. but we ain't that bonded cause there's still a line between the girls and the guys. and marisher and novelyn don't join us. so kinda not a class. which i don't like eh. but perhaps it's because we ain't familiar with each other. well. freaking happy. whahas. sent photo to classmates just now. those who hasn't gotten it, please get it from me!

tt21, i think i will miss you all. cause next sem may not be in the same class anymore. damn sad.but well, we stil can have gatherings and all. just hope you all will turn up! =]

TT21 in GREEN!

GUITAR!

My group. X)

ohya. TT21 tml is going to wear white!! we will be the purest of the pure!lols

tml meeting dear dear again! lols. i'm missing him now. hahas. dear must take care!

current mood: breeze.

finally IS modules are CLEARED! wahhhaas.
ohyeah. wannas blog about this morning. on the way to school in the bus. i was sitting at the four seats position facing the font. there was this girl about 6 to 7years, she was kinda mentally handicap or disable or whatever you call. and she sat right in front of me and was holding the damn handphone. guess what? she kick me! omg. then she sms and then she call? but no one answer the call one. she kept repeating the same thing all over again subsequently. not only that, she keep sitting close nearer to the guy beside her. the guy seems scared of her. I couldn't control my laughter and i keep laughing.

and she use her legs to block the pathway to let others trip down. evil girl eh? but i guess she's just trying to seek some attention from them. and yeah, she's naughty. she kicked my legs alot of time and kick my bag too. at last, the maid dragged her to alight the bus.

i think at that instance, everyone sigh a sight of relief i guess.

wahh. now at convention centre underpass. and it's damn cold okays. and and and, i saw daniel.yeah. didnt go say hello.

meeting dear later after jiaoni comes. then i teach her after that can go. =] i can use photoshop already! yay!