Wednesday, September 26, 2007

I would never ever trust any strAnger or so called "friends" who appear friendly anymore. _l_ them all.

if you really never did anything wrong, why care so much about my spouting nonsense?my talk cock as what you claimed?

i dont care what you would do to me.maybe find trouble but I wouldnt care much. afterall, i forseen a dreadful future. FOR YOU.

and I'm just trying to protect my love.

somehow, I felt that you're pitiful.
in fact I'm crying. bastard.

Sunday, September 23, 2007

I think if i dont try to save this blog, it will soon be stagnant. =)) well, i went to work today. and this is sunday! scary. morning it's like only me and jennifer in the office. and no one else. my office is big okay so 2 person in a big big office is weird.

after that, Ingrid, Abrinaw, Kenny, Dhaniah, Sharad came. Jennifer left shortly after that. I'm the only part timer. So they thank-ed me for coming to help them. total i heard alot of thanks. hahas. they are nice.

anyway, i worked for 6plus hours. and my pay rate is 13bucks per hour. hehes. well, for the 6++hrs, I have finish 5reports. whoos. 1 report about 120 slides. i'm super fast ! hahas.

anyway, dear's coughing is still... omg. getting worst. i wish he can transfer some to me. will lessen his burden. haiz. i'm useless, dont know what can i do for him. but tml i will be meeting him!!!!

what lies beneath the truth is the truth

Saturday, September 22, 2007

song-LOVE
L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one i see
V is very very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore

love is more than i can give to you
love is more than just a game for two
two in love can make it,take my heart but please don't break it
love was made for me and you.

this song is really nice!!my love okay!
well, i only slept at 5am this morning and woke up at around7am but was lazying in the bed. hahas. reached work rather early. didnt late. amazingly. =P

and some things are sorted out. which i shall not say.

i've severe headaches, toothaches, and backaches. dying. my eyes are still pain because of yesterday and I would like to thank jiaoni for talking to me throughout the night even though i know you're tired.

I hope ting has enjoyed herself last evening(thur). We'll be there for you. always. be it physically or mentally. and i'm glad you love and appreciate the card and the toys. =]

alrights. i better get going if not i going to puke.

the end of the tradgey is the beginning of another one.
nightmare.

Thursday, September 20, 2007

i worked OT today. cause i screwed up alot of things and ended work as a result. reached dear's house at 9pm. of course, i know, he's not happy. furthermore, he's sick. when i see how qiao cui he was, i felt worried for him. well, he still wanna work tml! I so dont want him to work. I just want him to rest. if he ever collapsed, I think i break down.

dear, I dont want you to work so much. So what if you work alot and have more income? money cant buy happiness. when you say got more money, we can go anywhere and do what we want and will be more happier. but if there's a price to pay and that's your health, I rather remain poor.

I didnt control my tears. tears just tickle down on its own. I'm sad that i've made him like that. I hope, he will recover soon.

anyway, ting, again, i wanna say, dont be sad over that matter. i'm always there for you. you can call my hotline everyday as and when you wish to. dont worry! just hope that after so many people concern about you, you will feel better. cheer up! take your time to sort out your thoughts.

time will heal all wounds! just remember what i told you in msn. =] stay happy. and tml you will get to see me! X)

and li xia too! ba suo you de bu kai xin du pao diao!(sorry, cant use chinese words. forget the shortcut).

alrights. tml's mission: cheer ting up!

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

shopping spree today! self selecting timetable today too!

morning woke up damn late. As a result, I missed my bus and i was late too. reached there and went to library to pay for the jap course. it's finally i paid money. after that, i proceed to underpass to find yanying. in the end, yanying and jiaoni not same class as us. they chose tt22. but we chose tt21. tt21 was rather competitive. everyone was fighting for that. and of course, that class is the 1st to be full.

for most of our tt21 classmates, they got into tt22 instead cause they couldnt get in. it was so damn sad alrights! majority in tt22. so end up tt21 left with me, yanhua, ting ting, boon and jerry. the pathetic 5 in tt21. the rest tt22 and the most poor thing is enkai and thiet. both in tt23. haiz. my new class so little girls. damn sian.anyway, it doesn't matter. we should accept what is arranged for us. it's fated. i guess heaven is fair to everyone. maybe some will be better in that particular class rather than be with their frenz.

we dragged alot of time and initally yanying pangseh us cause she went to watch movie with wel. sso, left me and jiaoni to bugis. we were rather depressed. cause it's hard for 3 of us to go out. but nevertheless, she find us at around 4plus when we have just reached. so felt better. =] at least 3of us are free for the whole day. girls' day.

we got quite a few shou huo. =] guess what? jiaoni bought 1 dress which is yellow and 1st time i felt that yellow is nice although last time sandra always love yellow and they know i dont like yellow, but when jiaoni wore that, so kawaii neh.!!! somemore her figure. omfg.i want!then she did bought another tube.yellow too. similar to the one i got but mine is black and mine is long.

As for me, amazingly, i did not buy top today. i bought 2 shorts. whoos. 1 jeans shorts but is very dark color and special, the other one is white! the one that i have been looking for! and has the right size for me!!! so freaking happy can? i like finally got more shorts! whoos. and everywhere i can see cardigans. omg. we stayed till around 10pm then we went home. the bus journey freaking long and i was carrying alot of things. so damnnnnnn heavy and tired. =/

anyway, my dear wan ting, dont be sad over the timetable thingy. As what i have said, heaven is fair to everyone. if you are destined to be in that class, you cant shake off. maybe if you change an environment will be better? and your thur end at 1pm right? we can meet up for lunch! although we nay not be as close as what we used to be, but i'm still as concern as what i used to be concern about you guys. So, i will always be there for you. even if you're going to talk to me some heart throbbing matters that would burst my eardrums(because of excess talkings), i dont mind. =)) i'm speaking from the bottom of my heart. =] so thur must go have dinner with you. it's time to take a break. =] loves.

试着放开或许会比较开心。
if it's meant to be yours, it will be YOURS.

hope you'll feel better after reading this!

next, to dear, i'm kinda disappointed that you didnt initiate to msg me. somehow, we seems to drift apart because of your work or perhaps it's... maybe, i'm thinking too much. you would always msg me and tell me you're going work but today you didnt. i'm sad. i kept a close look at my hp, no. there wasnt any msg.

when you called me just now, i dont know whats wrong with you. but whatever happens today, let it be gone. no matter what, i hope, you'll tell me everything in future, dont leave me wondering whats wrong with you or whether if i have done anything wrong. beloved, tml you shall tell me what happen!

waiting..

Friday, September 14, 2007

Result slip! what can I say? I can't say I'm satisfied. Neither do I can say I'm not satisfied if not people will bash me up. Initially, I'm quite satisfied cause many grades surprise me. thats why. but when you see nice grades, and suddenly appear one C+, I sian already.

BMGT-B(not surprise, expected)
BCA-B+(surprise,but not rEALLy shocked)
MacroEcon-A(freak out! thought would not score this grade !)
PBA-A+(another surprise! happy!)
IAC-AD(dont know why got this but happy)
LMS-B+(sian. can give me some tong qing fen?i did the video editing whole night eh. the teacher know lor.sian)
POA-C+(expected. didnt study smart.)
JAP-A+(a foreign language can score better than English!omg)

so my GPA is 3.4582

but. haiz. i didnt know what to say actually. can only blame myself. HAHAs.

so next tue will be the self select of timetable. I wonder, if the people i wanna be with in the same class is possible? HOPE so. but dont know if they all wanna be in the same class as me or not? haiz.

anyway, today is our 7th month-sary and we ended up never go watch rogue assassin. instead we chiong home to watch the "falling in love" HAHA! and I got a very unique gift from dear. It's very unique and 1st time I've receive that. =))thanks!

my dad's sick i think. he kept coughing. at night, when i haven sleep, I can see that he's suffering. he looked weak. In the morning, after he woke up and fold blankets, he laid on the bed and look hectic ,still coughing. it pains my heart to see him so weak. this is the 1st time i see him so weak. i dont know what to do and what to say. i feel so helpless. hope he will be fine again. God, please bao you wo de papa kuai dian hao qi lai.

Earthquakes in Indonesia strike again for 3 consecutive days. This alarm the world. especially singapore when they experience the shaking. well, when i heard this news, i was like.. i wanted to have an experience too. and , does this means that the world is going to.... the end? many many factors that made me conclude that.

tsunami is said to be striking in Indonesia. this means more and more casualties. gosh. please, can the natural disaster dont be so cruel to the world? I really, really wanted the world to be peaceful. why does heaven wanted to take so many innocent lives? i know this cant be helped. but, i just couldn't control. haiz. if i can exchange my life for all the disasters, i rather would so that the world would be free of disasters and may all people be pure. have the purest heart. no wars, no killings, no crimes.

still praying, for that day.

Thursday, September 13, 2007

wahh! IS module timetable is out!!!!!! I'm on wed. same time just like last sem. class is P48 and T48!!! who same class as me please tagg me!!!!

i guess next week will off on tue and go back school for the self select timetable. after that going strings. many many decades never go. lols.

30more minutes to my 7th month with dear!!! whoos!!! time pass very fast!!! ehehs. next morning 9am I will receive a sms. this would depend whether i would stay awake or not! hhaas. i'm depressed. hopefully tml will bring good news!

i hope the result will be the best present for me for our 7th month-sary although the result doesnt seems to concern us alot. hahas. anyway, dear, please do trust me okays? the past is the past. I'm sorry to break promises. but for all the months you with me, i'm sure you will know how i'm like?

=]

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

wahhs. today finish work at an unbelievable time. 4.35pm! I'm the first to go home! cause no more reports for me to do and I think I do too fast. my report consist of 120++ slides in a powerpoint so have to edit all those stuffs, especially the very tedious challenging and yet very fun Quandrant chart. from first day of work which i have complete in 3hour to 2hr20mins to 2hrs to 1h40mins to currently, 1h10mins! hahas. I'm a pro. somemore i can multi task alot of things. help Jennifer to upload the clientzone which takes a million years to upload because of the snail network.

today was the slackest day I guess. so i went to see the temp staffs' reports that they have done. frankly speaking, I felt that mine is the best out of the temps. I'm not trying to showcase here but thats what I felt. diff people got diff doings i guess. =] like xi jun, I always finish up my report first before i end my working day. this is call responsible? lols. I'm very caution too. when uploading the clientzone. I made sure my stuffs not wrong if not i'm in hot soup! what brighten up my day is when jennifer said something to me

Jennifer: So you help me check SG's(indian lady) Italy Lavatory Care report okays?
me: (nods) okays
Jennifer: I trust you. (then she smile at me)

whoos. happy. but still, cant fang song too. hahas.

tml will start work at 11am. slightly later. which is a good thing. can sleep more. =] moreover, i can have lunch at home first cause today xi jun say she's having lunch with me for the last time cause she will start work at 1pm. sobs.

well, although we know each other barely 1 week, we can talk alot. macham we are old friends. hahas. just like when I'm with din! anyway, I'm glad to meet you girls. hahas. great experience indeed!

I know my jap's result!!!!!!! Damn happy when i saw it!! i got an A+ for it! language eh! first result from poly. lols. hopefully, this would make my other modules a good one. countdown to 2more days and 2 more days to 7th month-sary. may that day be a wonderful day. result= my 7th month-sary surprise gift.

and and and.. dear dye his hhair and trim his hair today. well, when i finally saw him, it was already very dark at his house so when i ask him to switch on the lights, -.- i saw his hair GREEN color and at the back is GOLD! -.- dear is chao ah beng. somemore yesterday xi jun(germs) and I were talking about GREEN hair! diaos.

he's having exam tml! good luck eh. may ladyluck with you throughout the day!!! jiayou!!!! and seeya tml! hope to have good news instead!
I'm feeling sickish and tired now. somehow, my backbone aches like nobody's business. my hands kept touching it.in fact, it seems like i'm molesting myself. lols. headache now.somemore my eyelids are heavy!

later meeting dear.yay!

somehow, i feel like giving up. I'm SERIOUS

Sunday, September 09, 2007

8 September 2007-remember this day.

to many people, perhaps a Saturday is like any day. But for me, Saturday is always special day of the week. Of course, it was well spent with my beloved one. Especially today where I have marked an enjoyable day. =]

Although there's some commotion in the morning, nevertheless, everything was settled by noon. We set off to vivo after dear had his breakfast cum lunch. We wanted to watch Ratatouille at around 4.05pm but there's only a pathetic seat left. In the end, we caught the movie at 6.40pm. knowing that dear's not really happy or something, I tried all ways and means to cheer him up, only to make myself so dumb, stupid and crazy. lols. but actually i enjoyed it. =X

anyway, someone pissed me off when I was in the toilet. Seriously, I think the person is crazy okay? I was in the toilet looking at the mirror. That's what a normal girl will do when she saw the mirror right? this girl walked to the basin beside mine. Then she stared at me and suddenly utter a word, "siao". I was fucking angry. I diao her then went out. oh please, what rights do you have to say that to me? moreover, I think you're the crazy one. well, can't be bothered with that pig. sorry, didnt want to insult her but she's simply is. At least her legs and thighs are bigger than mine! anyway, I measure my thighs. My thighs got slim down! happy.

Not wanting to spoil the mood, I tried to forget that incidence. anyway, I told dear that we are a special and unique couple. why? cause normal couples would go shop for clothes and stuffs. But 2 of us go to GIANT. we always go super market, hypermarkets etc. So everytime i would call dear "Auntie HAO HAO". WHAHAHAS. he always made full use of his auntie-ness as he would teach me what type of veggies is this and that. freaking funny. =]]

after that, went to the exposed area on the 3rd level to have our junk food. We chatted alot and fucking hell, we forgotten about the time! So we chionged to the cinema. luckily the show have not start if not i will go sehz. -.-" well, I like ratatouille! nice. it was believed "anyone can cook">>agree but doesnt mean they can cook nice. like me. I can follow the recipe but doesnt mean I can cook a sumptuous meal.

after that, we headed for the bus. I was pretty noisy today as we finally went out after so long. Last few weeks we went bankrupt. =X So I was super active today. I laughed like nobody's business and I couldn't stopped my laughter. I guess my laughter is too exaggerating that dear has to cover my mouth! LOLS.

the bus journey to his house was rather fast I supposed cause I was entertaining him all the way, being crazy and all, talking very LOUD, laughing like a mad girl who has not laugh for many decades that I think everyone was practically looking at me. But i didnt care much. I just continue. all I want is to be happy everyday just like today. =] after we alight, I told dear,

"dear, I think all the passengers would be very glad that they have peace after we alight. Especially the uncle in front of me who is irritated by me." I said cheekly.

I guess dear's eardrum going to burst because of my talkings and laughters starting from the time when we took bus to vivo all the way back home. Even during the movie i was fidgeting around. But I guess he dont mind after all cause he like today too. As long as he's happy, I'm fine with it. No matter how stupid I've been or making fool of myself, I just hope, his day would be brighten up. by me. =]

9 September 2007- Today

I woke up late today. pretty late. 1ppm. Lols. stayed at home all day to rot. Nothing for me to do actually. Well, just hang up the call after talking to dear. he's working today. HAHA. everyone's been busying working. Me too. So today will be my rest day.

gonna catch my anime soon! Ting, tell me the outing soon alrights? take care too. hopefully dear's desired handphone has restocked-W580i. the desired phone I want is K850i. I heard from some rumours that the phone is launched in november or december. PLEASE! let it be January or Feb can? I scared the phone is limited edition. -.-

alrights. I will blog again soon! take care everyone! Some recommendations:
-a photogenic life by Low Kay Hwa from the book "I believe you". the photogenic life book is damn nice.
-You are here by the same author. It's nice too. make me cry.
- www.anntonii.blogspot.com >>check out this. the story is nice too! engrossed!

boyy, may you have a nice day!

Wednesday, September 05, 2007

I'm back. yeah. went to far east after work. was supposed to meet kelly and sarina but ended up bith didnt go. So i went there alone. actually i didnt shop anything. I only went to buy the cardigans and looked for syimah. HAHAs. she's damn thing now. *envy*

okays. the cardigans damn cheap okays. it's fucking cheap. 1st piece is 25.90 and if bought 2nd piece, will be 8bucks only. damn cheap. and of course I bought 2. Electric blue and red. tml i'm going there again with kelly after work. maybe will buy grey and green. still thinking though. cant make decision. =/

I rot at zinc for 3 hours I think. pei her. HAHAs. she went smoking 2times. please girl, kick that habit. you dont have to smoke okays. and she told me a lot of things. I'm so glad that I used to work there and know a friend like her. hmms. we didnt have conflicts throughout working days. she made me crazy. lols. as in more cheerful I guess? =] both of us have temper and attitude but I will tolerate one. cause I will attitude too. she also will give in. sometimes it's a matter of how you handle a situation.

work today was fine. except i left work early than expected. wan yun was sacked 2 days ago. only today Din and I learn about it. So i shall not use internet unnecessarily. if not I will lose the job. NO. dont sack me. If not got bad records. there is new girl too. dont know the name but i know is XJ. HAHAs.

Din's going off soon. BOO. just when we were about to be closer, she's leaving. =( sad man. friday is her last day. maybe i can do something? card or what I guess. we can be crappy when together. lols.FUN!

anyway, how are my beloved friends doing during holidays? how's work man? please tagg me to let me know about yourself or drop by sms. oh yes, JIAONI, I msg you but you didnt reply. dont sell donut until become donut.lols. when you see this post, do ring me up okays? it's hard to contact you. the last time when you msg me was.... last wk I think. got alot of things to tell you! and lotsa stuffs to catch up. AND, you want cardigan right? go far east. CHEAP!

anyway, this morning damn early wake up because my stomach. fucking pain and I wanna die from it. I got diahorrea. damn. cant stand it man. can cry. sickish during work and I felt that i'm dying or something. fuck @#$%^&* But, bear with it. hehes.

wtf. music camp is 4days. crazy okays. go die lah. somemore the list is absurb. if Mr Kaan sees it, he will point out more stuffs than me. sanitary napkins(for ladies) obviously! if not for guys? they use pad meh? for what? when they PCC? DUH.

siansation. dear, why haven call me. RAHH. mood aint good. I want to SCOLD people! damn it. ohya. i subscribe to the SMS? result. hopefully. the message will be a good one. i dont want myself to go crazy when i see the message.

typical singaporean, I hate to take bus because of that. they are damn KIASU. squeeze and squeeza. macham I'm wet sponge huh? can squeeze until no more water. I'm not. I'm rubber band. the more you stretch, the painful you get. I mean it.

dearr, faster call me can? just now i talk halfway. I going to explode already after what happen. and after leaving far east.

Tuesday, September 04, 2007

Worked OT again. 再这样下去,我是会撑不住的。睡眠不足真的可以让我BLUR到比SOTONG还SOTONG。
reached my house downstairs at around 8plus. and my mummy and aunties ask me to go home sleep. and shortly after, I went home. sian.

my eye lid damn heavy. This 2 days did different things. client zone. HAHAs. something like "promoted". at least i dont always do formatting. BUT, I'm multi-tasking and I'm amazed by my ability. whoos.

dear, faster come home. 我快要撑不住了。
I'm back. finally. reached home rather late today cause I was at downstairs. =)) talked alot to kelly. We both were like.. I want to buy this and that and wed I'm gonna try to be release early so that I can meet up with them :) for what? AHAHs. for shopping for maybe pathetic 30mins-1hour then headed down to my house there for the dinner. maybe I'm going for the dinner. But it sure will cost me a BOMB. as in FATS not MONEY. lols.

I wanted to blog alot. HAHA. have this habit of blogging everyday I guess. well, I'm so engrossed in reading online stories. as in the webby got stories that are touching and I cried when I was reading in the office. I looked like a moron indeed. well, today's work is okay except in the morning i was damn bored because Jennifer came in the noon while we got nothing to do and rot.

I was given a new task. =)) happy. and had lunched with wan yun and Din. yeah. get to know them better and we talked about our boyfriends. coincidentally, all three of us have bfs. hahas. and din's relationship is already 4years.! very long. So envy. when they asked me how many I have before, and they were shocked and WOW when i told them how many i have. HAAHs. nothing to be shocked actually. some people got more than me.

this is not a show off case okay. being in different relationship makes a person grow up. from the relationships that a person experience, he/ she will learn something from there and make sure the same thing would not happen again. Or should i say, there are pros and cons.I told them I found the right man in my life. (: 3 of us were envying each other. lols.

I'm now kinda affectionate. dont know why. perhaps it's due to the love stories that I have seen last night and this morning. to the writer: please post the next chapter asap!

anyway, I finally finish watching WHY WHY LOVE! nice! I cried alot. and my eyes were swollen last night because of that. HAHAs. I'm emotional not EMO! lols. ying ye 3+1 seems nice and the upcoming drama: romantic princess starring WU ZUN and angela. should be a nice one i guess. will be watching ying ye 3+! over the weekends.

sat please come faster. I wanna watch movie with dearr. and dearr, dont worry about your phone. although I found out that it was limited edition, however, think positively =] maybe there will be restocking and soon you will be able to own it! somehow I believe. but black better. dont take grey. lols.

dont ever treat me like that the way you are today okay? If not i cant stand it. YEAH? and I wont be seeing you till Friday. SO you must take care of yourself okay? dont tired out yourself during work. must drink more water and dont make me worry. If your cough still haven recover, please take a leave for work can?oops. it's damn late and I'm still blogging. HAHAs.

things to buy:
-Grey cardigan
-Electric Blue cardigan(damn sad. the online seller refund me the money because of the supplier problem.)
-Black skinny
-White Shorts
-Blue/Purple Shades
-Shoulder Bags
-Crumpler Bag/N.U.M Bag
-Slipper
-Heels Ladies' Shoe
-Mascara?need to change one
-repair computer. the stupid sound card
-maybe blouse or whatever caught my attention!

hopfully I can buy them asap. I've no time for shopping! I wanna shop and sometimes it's better if I shopped alone. at least better and faster. cause i'm harsh buyer. I'm not that picky and I choose things fast. HAHA.

just wanna ask, what is Love? I came across this question. What do you think of Love? tag me =]

tada. tml's working and guitar tml. will be damn late. and will slack at downstairs with same people and more people after guitar. =]

Sunday, September 02, 2007

lalilulelo.=]

happy happy happy!

now I dont even care how others think of me. cause some people will either love or hate chaileng and it's natural. dont like me is your business. =P I've no loss. If you all wanna talk bad about me(if ever anyone does), tell me straight into the faace. I'm willing to entertain. =D

either you gain or lose it. up to you. =)) I dont mind. X) geez.
but just hope people dont be so fake eh? cause on the surface they are happy but actually not. some trying to show off, dont know for what purpose. trying to prove that you're happy? wow, that's very noble of you eh?

hey yanying, now i also keep eh eh eh eh. lols. everyday see your blog always eh eh eh until i also eh eh eh. =]

i love to see other people's blog. dont know why. hahas. especially my friends. wonder if they would look at my blog too? I doubt so. but some may?

just a random post today! I want to work! looking forward to tomorrow!!! =] after which i get to see dear again. =X lalalala~