Friday, February 29, 2008
29 Feb., special day, I wonder, how special will it become? I don’t know, I keep having mixed feelings. Tml’s working again. These few days so troubled. I don’t know. Will my birthday be a memorable this year? I hope, to sleep through the days and when I wake up, everything will be fine.
I saw something that made me devastated.
I saw something that made me devastated.
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Went to top 1 ktv with the girls. This is the first time we went there. Situated at bugis. The environment is very cool. Of course, we got bio guys. But didn’t catch anyone except the waiter who serve us. He’s not handsome or what, just cute. Shall not elaborate about it.
After that, window shopping. Nothing caught my attention but saw quite a few white shorts! But I don’t want to buy it now cause I’m so broke. Mum’s buying 2 3 quarter white pants for me. ^^ pray hard that she got it.
Had a mini heart to heart session with my dearest girls. I don’t know what’s my decision though. I seriously don’t know. Pros and cons. I think I have to follow my heart. Factors like ideal and future are concern here.
Anyway, Ierna called me this afternoon and asked me go back work tomorrow so I’m going back work! HEHE. At least can divert my attention as well. Oh well, that day first day of work is great. Although I work only for 3 hours? But then I’m glad a lot of them didn’t forget me. Jennifer, yessika, dhaniah, abino etc. ^^
8 part-timers were there (including me). Crap. Got to go. Night all. I’ll be fine. Thanks for all’s concern!
After that, window shopping. Nothing caught my attention but saw quite a few white shorts! But I don’t want to buy it now cause I’m so broke. Mum’s buying 2 3 quarter white pants for me. ^^ pray hard that she got it.
Had a mini heart to heart session with my dearest girls. I don’t know what’s my decision though. I seriously don’t know. Pros and cons. I think I have to follow my heart. Factors like ideal and future are concern here.
Anyway, Ierna called me this afternoon and asked me go back work tomorrow so I’m going back work! HEHE. At least can divert my attention as well. Oh well, that day first day of work is great. Although I work only for 3 hours? But then I’m glad a lot of them didn’t forget me. Jennifer, yessika, dhaniah, abino etc. ^^
8 part-timers were there (including me). Crap. Got to go. Night all. I’ll be fine. Thanks for all’s concern!
Sunday, February 24, 2008
So now, there’s a turning point for me. To be back together or not. 1 week to think. Hopefully at the end, both of us wont get hurt. I don’t know for now, but then, the only thing I can say is, I’m struggling.
Whether my decision is to be with him or remain as friends, my heart would never change. Even if in the end we never get back together, I just wanna tell him that my decision has got nothing to do with other people. It’s just that I couldn’t afford to get hurt again or hurt him.
为了自己心仪的人的幸福，我宁愿不要他再度受伤害。和喜欢的人不一定要在一起，只要他快乐就可以了。如果成为了情侣又要受到痛苦，那我宁愿做一辈子的朋友。
Whether my decision is to be with him or remain as friends, my heart would never change. Even if in the end we never get back together, I just wanna tell him that my decision has got nothing to do with other people. It’s just that I couldn’t afford to get hurt again or hurt him.
为了自己心仪的人的幸福，我宁愿不要他再度受伤害。和喜欢的人不一定要在一起，只要他快乐就可以了。如果成为了情侣又要受到痛苦，那我宁愿做一辈子的朋友。
Saturday, February 23, 2008
Perhaps starting a relationship is easy but ending is hard. I can deceive everyone that I’m fine but I can’t deceive myself. I know how much this meant to me and I also know if we still continue, it won’t do us any good. We’re not compatible. I know. I guess I need time, to recover.
I can’t believe I’m crying while typing. How stupid is that? I can’t help but I’m just sad. Maybe I still can’t let go. But I will, become the chai leng that you all used to know. I need time, to heal my wound. All too sudden.
I even told jiaoni that maybe ending it is a good choice for us. I know it will come, sooner or later. But I didn’t expect to happen straightaway from last night. I don’t know.
Saw something more disheartening. After all, he has set his mind. 8 hours ago, the pictures were gone.
The song, "Hate that I love you" is indeed the RIGHT song.
Chai leng, stay strong.
I can’t believe I’m crying while typing. How stupid is that? I can’t help but I’m just sad. Maybe I still can’t let go. But I will, become the chai leng that you all used to know. I need time, to heal my wound. All too sudden.
I even told jiaoni that maybe ending it is a good choice for us. I know it will come, sooner or later. But I didn’t expect to happen straightaway from last night. I don’t know.
Saw something more disheartening. After all, he has set his mind. 8 hours ago, the pictures were gone.
The song, "Hate that I love you" is indeed the RIGHT song.
Chai leng, stay strong.
Friday, February 22, 2008
HOHOHO! Exams are officially over! Seriously everyone’s not in the mood to study for exam. Especially me cause I’m sick plus I’m already in holiday mood and last 2 nights ago, yanying and I were happily discussing about today. So of course, I didn’t have the mood to study. All my thoughts were full of shopping!
Went to marina with yanying, jiaoni, Elena and tingting. Yanhua is a pangseh kia. HAHA. She didn’t join us though. But it’s okay. Next time I guess. The next trip will be to kbox! I didn’t sing for a long time. I believe my throat is itching for it. Although I was there for a short while, I still enjoy the company with girlfriends. They were great! I know most of us were hectic but nevertheless, we didn’t pull down the atmosphere.
I think yanying spent the most today. A pity I didn’t catch any white pants that I want. But I simply love white bottom. Don’t know why. Simply looks cool and great. ^^ well, after that, I went off first. Cab to batok and I couldn’t believe that the cab fare was fucking cheap. $11.60 only can? That time cab from cck to simei with my mum was $30.50! so much of a difference. Even without peak hour it’s 22.60 can? Damn ex. The cab driver was kinda irritating cause I’m so tired and he keep talking to me.
Went to see doctor again. Finally I don’t have to see him again because he prescribe 2 more days of antibiotics for me and tada, that’s it! I don’t have to go back as my fever finally subsides. My antibodies finally did their part! Okay. I’m crapping.
On the bus way home, I saw a YOUNG married couple with a baby. The baby is very adorable. I kept looking at him. Couldn’t take my eyes off him. I was wondering what’s the feeling of having a baby? When you give birth, what would you feel? Throughout the process of teaching him, what was it like?
Wonders and wonders.
Since holiday has just started, I’m going to work on something that I’ve been wanting to do- freelance writer. I wanted to be a freelance photography too! Probably going to take up a course or so. Going to start my officially first story and I shall share with you all. ^^
Went to marina with yanying, jiaoni, Elena and tingting. Yanhua is a pangseh kia. HAHA. She didn’t join us though. But it’s okay. Next time I guess. The next trip will be to kbox! I didn’t sing for a long time. I believe my throat is itching for it. Although I was there for a short while, I still enjoy the company with girlfriends. They were great! I know most of us were hectic but nevertheless, we didn’t pull down the atmosphere.
I think yanying spent the most today. A pity I didn’t catch any white pants that I want. But I simply love white bottom. Don’t know why. Simply looks cool and great. ^^ well, after that, I went off first. Cab to batok and I couldn’t believe that the cab fare was fucking cheap. $11.60 only can? That time cab from cck to simei with my mum was $30.50! so much of a difference. Even without peak hour it’s 22.60 can? Damn ex. The cab driver was kinda irritating cause I’m so tired and he keep talking to me.
Went to see doctor again. Finally I don’t have to see him again because he prescribe 2 more days of antibiotics for me and tada, that’s it! I don’t have to go back as my fever finally subsides. My antibodies finally did their part! Okay. I’m crapping.
On the bus way home, I saw a YOUNG married couple with a baby. The baby is very adorable. I kept looking at him. Couldn’t take my eyes off him. I was wondering what’s the feeling of having a baby? When you give birth, what would you feel? Throughout the process of teaching him, what was it like?
Wonders and wonders.
Since holiday has just started, I’m going to work on something that I’ve been wanting to do- freelance writer. I wanted to be a freelance photography too! Probably going to take up a course or so. Going to start my officially first story and I shall share with you all. ^^
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
I’m so happy that BSAT is officially over! Nothing could describe how I feel. As for this semester exam, I know that I will score badly because I didn’t study much. Not that I don’t want to study, just that I’m too sick to study.
Fever is really torturing. It has been on and off for me for the past few days. Especially yesterday, when I should be studying, instead I was waiting for my turn to see doctor. It’s not at my house there. It’s at Bukit Batok west. My family doctor since young.
As usual, the doctor talked very fast. He was kind of shocked when he saw the antibiotics that the other doctor has given me. This was because the antibiotics are already very strong and yet, it doesn’t have effect on me.
According to him, I had germs infection. =.= last time was virus infection and Now germs. Aiyo. Why the germs, bacteria and virus like me so much? Especially during exam period I would get those weird infections.
Because of this, I could not eat a lot of things. Not even milk! Gosh. Sick is no fun. ):
But now, here I am, happily blogging and changing my blogskin. I can’t say I have recovered fully. All I can say is so far so good but abit of headache and tireness. I’m quite sad that I couldn’t meet someone. Friday will be the day then.
1 more paper to go and I’m done with this semester! Hooray!
Good news is wan ting and jiaoni will be joining RI. So they will be working at the same place as me! Yuppie! So happy.
Fever is really torturing. It has been on and off for me for the past few days. Especially yesterday, when I should be studying, instead I was waiting for my turn to see doctor. It’s not at my house there. It’s at Bukit Batok west. My family doctor since young.
As usual, the doctor talked very fast. He was kind of shocked when he saw the antibiotics that the other doctor has given me. This was because the antibiotics are already very strong and yet, it doesn’t have effect on me.
According to him, I had germs infection. =.= last time was virus infection and Now germs. Aiyo. Why the germs, bacteria and virus like me so much? Especially during exam period I would get those weird infections.
Because of this, I could not eat a lot of things. Not even milk! Gosh. Sick is no fun. ):
But now, here I am, happily blogging and changing my blogskin. I can’t say I have recovered fully. All I can say is so far so good but abit of headache and tireness. I’m quite sad that I couldn’t meet someone. Friday will be the day then.
1 more paper to go and I’m done with this semester! Hooray!
Good news is wan ting and jiaoni will be joining RI. So they will be working at the same place as me! Yuppie! So happy.
Monday, February 18, 2008
I finally came online after so many days. Sick. Seriously I'm prone to sickness whenever it's exam period. I dont know why. Maybe God wanted to punish me for being "lin shi bao fo jiao"
So if i ever scored badly for exam, it's only my fault.
gonna go see doctor at 8am sharp. and imagine my temp went high high high till 39.2. according to my thermometer. =.=
to him: sorry, tml i may not be meeting you when I'm so sickish. haiz.
So if i ever scored badly for exam, it's only my fault.
gonna go see doctor at 8am sharp. and imagine my temp went high high high till 39.2. according to my thermometer. =.=
to him: sorry, tml i may not be meeting you when I'm so sickish. haiz.
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Sunday, February 10, 2008
I have a goal in my life. I will try my best to achieve that goal. What’s my goal? My goal is not to be looked down by others. THEY know who I’m referring to. When I grow up, I will make sure that I earned a lot of money to show them that I’m capable. I will succeed. I'm sure I will if I work hard.
CNY this year isn't that bad as I thought. Take today for example, my relatives they all came to my house and gathered. I love these gatherings whereby people will come to my house. But my father's side ... not much people come. HOW SAD. I said I'm close to them, yet not that close either. oh gosh.
I only dont like some who just @#$%^&* Other than that, still okay. ^^ tomorrow's meeting the girls. ^^ hopefully we can enjoy ourselves! loves.
many many things arise ever since dont know when. But I believe as long as I'm able to face it, should be alright.
My birthday faster come! Driving test!!! I want asap. But at the same time, I'm scared.
CNY this year isn't that bad as I thought. Take today for example, my relatives they all came to my house and gathered. I love these gatherings whereby people will come to my house. But my father's side ... not much people come. HOW SAD. I said I'm close to them, yet not that close either. oh gosh.
I only dont like some who just @#$%^&* Other than that, still okay. ^^ tomorrow's meeting the girls. ^^ hopefully we can enjoy ourselves! loves.
many many things arise ever since dont know when. But I believe as long as I'm able to face it, should be alright.
My birthday faster come! Driving test!!! I want asap. But at the same time, I'm scared.
Saturday, February 09, 2008
Friday, February 08, 2008
HAPPY CNY! this year CNY isnt bad. in fact, i enjoyed it. (: we went to east coast cause my uncle live at marina parade which is near there.
pictures shall do some talkings!
i edited this picture! all taken at east coast!
cousins!
legs up!
at mac. ^^
my camwhored partner. he loves to take photo too!
my beloved brother!
my dad's posing for me!
we are at downstairs! playing with the electronic kite that cost $650 =.=
the wind too strong!
posing?
me and theng theng
at ah huat's room zilianing ^^
pictures shall do some talkings!
i edited this picture! all taken at east coast!
cousins!
wanted hands?
legs up!
at mac. ^^
my camwhored partner. he loves to take photo too!
my beloved brother!
my dad's posing for me!
we are at downstairs! playing with the electronic kite that cost $650 =.=
the wind too strong!
posing?
me and theng theng
at ah huat's room zilianing ^^
Wednesday, February 06, 2008
Actually I don’t like CNY. What for? Only to collect ang pao. Somehow, I feel that it’s meaningless. There will be endless of quarrels and misunderstands in the process. And why must there be a custom that black should be avoided?
Why we can’t wear black? Seriously, I don’t really enjoy CNY. I don’t know why. Relatives will start asking,
“You got boyfriend already?”
“Wow, you grow fatter le hor?”
Standard questions. I guess everyone would encounter the same as me. When relatives started asking these typical questions, your parents would stare at you especially the most sensitive question, boyfriend topic. Why? These people are really old fashioned. I do not want to insult anyone but seriously, I had enough.
To them, I may appear nothing happen. But actually I do care. Just that I cant be bothered with them. But if every year they started talking about the same topic over and over again, they are really testing my limits. If I ever explode, what would they feel or think? Got 2 situation.
1st is “OMG. Chai leng change so much. Know how to rebuke.”
2nd is “dumbfounded. Speechless. ” probably my mum would give me 1 tight slap.
Well, I shall end here. Just hope that this year would be a better year. No more of these stuffs. Utterly sian.
still prefer to go dad's side. cause i'm closer to them. the 3 cousins of mine are great. ^^ sorry girls, this year may not join you girls. sorry.
Always feel so bored during chu yi. Cousins are so drifted apart. I don’t like that feeling. Hate it. I wonder in the coming years, would I still go bai nian? Boredom kills me.
Why we can’t wear black? Seriously, I don’t really enjoy CNY. I don’t know why. Relatives will start asking,
“You got boyfriend already?”
“Wow, you grow fatter le hor?”
Standard questions. I guess everyone would encounter the same as me. When relatives started asking these typical questions, your parents would stare at you especially the most sensitive question, boyfriend topic. Why? These people are really old fashioned. I do not want to insult anyone but seriously, I had enough.
To them, I may appear nothing happen. But actually I do care. Just that I cant be bothered with them. But if every year they started talking about the same topic over and over again, they are really testing my limits. If I ever explode, what would they feel or think? Got 2 situation.
1st is “OMG. Chai leng change so much. Know how to rebuke.”
2nd is “dumbfounded. Speechless. ” probably my mum would give me 1 tight slap.
Well, I shall end here. Just hope that this year would be a better year. No more of these stuffs. Utterly sian.
still prefer to go dad's side. cause i'm closer to them. the 3 cousins of mine are great. ^^ sorry girls, this year may not join you girls. sorry.
Always feel so bored during chu yi. Cousins are so drifted apart. I don’t like that feeling. Hate it. I wonder in the coming years, would I still go bai nian? Boredom kills me.
Monday, February 04, 2008
A long lost friend
serene says:
hmm hmm,i ask around if any good ideaS?
serene says:
haha
serene says:
cause normally tis kind,u and wanting are better at it
serene says:
haha
c - a i L e \ g: BLOCkED NOSE! says:
oh?
c - a i L e \ g: BLOCkED NOSE! says:
^^
c - a i L e \ g: BLOCkED NOSE! says:
thank you thank you
c - a i L e \ g: BLOCkED NOSE! says:
wan ting got those funny funny ideas
c - a i L e \ g: BLOCkED NOSE! says:
^^
serene says:
yar lah!haha
serene says:
no one can bet u two already lo!haha
c - a i L e \ g: BLOCkED NOSE! says:
lols
c - a i L e \ g: BLOCkED NOSE! says:
later we fly too high cannot come down
c - a i L e \ g: BLOCkED NOSE! says:
LOLS
c - a i L e \ g: BLOCkED NOSE! says:
okay la
c - a i L e \ g: BLOCkED NOSE! says:
u get back to me asap okays?
c - a i L e \ g: BLOCkED NOSE! says:
and the name list
c - a i L e \ g: BLOCkED NOSE! says:
^^
serene says:
u think both of u are kites huh!?haha
serene says:
okie!(:
conversation with serene! HAHAHAHA. So long never talk to her. now finally talk to her ^^
I had some thought just now. Something which made me reminisce the past. I remembered a friend. we were used to be good friends. really good friends. but something made us fall apart. didnt talk. neither do we quarrel. this made me feel that i'm such a fool. I dont know. now when I look back, I realised all of us were childish.
I guess we really have nothing better to do.
hmm hmm,i ask around if any good ideaS?
serene says:
haha
serene says:
cause normally tis kind,u and wanting are better at it
serene says:
haha
c - a i L e \ g: BLOCkED NOSE! says:
oh?
c - a i L e \ g: BLOCkED NOSE! says:
^^
c - a i L e \ g: BLOCkED NOSE! says:
thank you thank you
c - a i L e \ g: BLOCkED NOSE! says:
wan ting got those funny funny ideas
c - a i L e \ g: BLOCkED NOSE! says:
^^
serene says:
yar lah!haha
serene says:
no one can bet u two already lo!haha
c - a i L e \ g: BLOCkED NOSE! says:
lols
c - a i L e \ g: BLOCkED NOSE! says:
later we fly too high cannot come down
c - a i L e \ g: BLOCkED NOSE! says:
LOLS
c - a i L e \ g: BLOCkED NOSE! says:
okay la
c - a i L e \ g: BLOCkED NOSE! says:
u get back to me asap okays?
c - a i L e \ g: BLOCkED NOSE! says:
and the name list
c - a i L e \ g: BLOCkED NOSE! says:
^^
serene says:
u think both of u are kites huh!?haha
serene says:
okie!(:
conversation with serene! HAHAHAHA. So long never talk to her. now finally talk to her ^^
I had some thought just now. Something which made me reminisce the past. I remembered a friend. we were used to be good friends. really good friends. but something made us fall apart. didnt talk. neither do we quarrel. this made me feel that i'm such a fool. I dont know. now when I look back, I realised all of us were childish.
I guess we really have nothing better to do.
Sunday, February 03, 2008
I had my hair cut just now! But only my fringe and my bro said something that made me sad. UGLY. My blog seems to be kind of boring with all those words and stuffs. No pictures and all. So I’m going to blog all my pictures! Mostly are overdue! =P
drum rolling...
Kuantan TRIP!
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me and my cousin sok theng^^ 1st time take photo with her? LOL
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my mother's side cousin! At the bird nest factory
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my insane brother! love him ^^
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I'm zilian-ing everywhere.
Lixia's birthday
reflection of me!
birthday girl li xia and me*while waiting for wan ting to come out from toilet
me and xia xia
OOPS! Where you looking?
Scary isn't it?
HOHOHO!
Mirrors are amazing!
my different colors' shadow?
I'm at the broadcast station! Do I look topless?
Zilianing at home! Thats what girls do right?
^^
this is the $69.90 dress! Didnt want to show it but then, still post it in the end cause i simply love it. Geoksui,in the end i still bought it
2 blacks 1 white
friends forever. love them most!
Hip Hop Competition
the 5 dancers with the coach, Justis. YEs, from SOUL.
me and justis. Guess will miss his dance lesson. ='(
the one in white is our captain! limelight!hahahs
HIPHOP CLASS!
CATS PResentation
my group! yes. the one beside me is a guy! but he's acting as a girl. I bet he enjoys too! Gary say he love him. lol. He's MS SEAN OF 2008!
Thats us again! We enjoyed our presentation alot and of course, the class and Mr lee enjoyed too!
I'm wearing the WIG
look at my messy wardrobe! will tidy up tml. cause my mum has been complaining that my wardrobe could not contain anymore clothes! but the space is so small not that i have many clothes
zilianing because i got nothing better to do as I was waiting for the time to pass to go school for NSS test
Sorry, I know that my blog may let some of you puke because of my zilian pictures. but bear with me. HAHAS.
drum rolling...
Kuantan TRIP!
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me and my cousin sok theng^^ 1st time take photo with her? LOL
+052.jpg)
my mother's side cousin! At the bird nest factory
+217.jpg)
my insane brother! love him ^^
+244.jpg)
I'm zilian-ing everywhere.
Lixia's birthday
reflection of me!
birthday girl li xia and me*while waiting for wan ting to come out from toilet
me and xia xia
OOPS! Where you looking?
Science Centre
Scary isn't it?
HOHOHO!
Mirrors are amazing!
my different colors' shadow?
I'm at the broadcast station! Do I look topless?
Zilianing at home! Thats what girls do right?
^^
this is the $69.90 dress! Didnt want to show it but then, still post it in the end cause i simply love it. Geoksui,in the end i still bought it
Bcomm Presentation
2 blacks 1 white
friends forever. love them most!
Hip Hop Competition
the 5 dancers with the coach, Justis. YEs, from SOUL.
me and justis. Guess will miss his dance lesson. ='(
the one in white is our captain! limelight!hahahs
HIPHOP CLASS!
CATS PResentation
my group! yes. the one beside me is a guy! but he's acting as a girl. I bet he enjoys too! Gary say he love him. lol. He's MS SEAN OF 2008!
Thats us again! We enjoyed our presentation alot and of course, the class and Mr lee enjoyed too!
I'm wearing the WIG
Home
look at my messy wardrobe! will tidy up tml. cause my mum has been complaining that my wardrobe could not contain anymore clothes! but the space is so small not that i have many clothes
zilianing because i got nothing better to do as I was waiting for the time to pass to go school for NSS test
Sorry, I know that my blog may let some of you puke because of my zilian pictures. but bear with me. HAHAS.
thats the end of the long long post. next picture post would be about CNY. I suppose. ^^
Saturday, February 02, 2008
to my dear brother:
no one wants that to happen. I hope you dont put it to mind. I know you're feeling terrible.i know you felt a sense of guilt. But if you have anything to say, tell me. I'm here for you. I'm your sister. I know what you're thinking. Maybe everyone will feel that you're wrong, of course I do feel the same way, but I guess you got to be careful next time.
She maybe abit harsh. But somehow, put yourself in her shoes. Maybe in that way you'll understand how she feel. When I tried to talk to you just now, you din want to bother me. I dont know what to do either. All I know is I'm a failure as a sis.
You may or may not see this post but thats how I feel now. SAD. TERRIBLE. More than anyone else. Remember, I'm always here for you. even if i'm just beside you.
I went shopping today again. And I bought 1 blouse + 1 spag. loves. 1 shirt for my bro too. my mood's spoil.
nothing could describe how I feel now.
no one wants that to happen. I hope you dont put it to mind. I know you're feeling terrible.i know you felt a sense of guilt. But if you have anything to say, tell me. I'm here for you. I'm your sister. I know what you're thinking. Maybe everyone will feel that you're wrong, of course I do feel the same way, but I guess you got to be careful next time.
She maybe abit harsh. But somehow, put yourself in her shoes. Maybe in that way you'll understand how she feel. When I tried to talk to you just now, you din want to bother me. I dont know what to do either. All I know is I'm a failure as a sis.
You may or may not see this post but thats how I feel now. SAD. TERRIBLE. More than anyone else. Remember, I'm always here for you. even if i'm just beside you.
I went shopping today again. And I bought 1 blouse + 1 spag. loves. 1 shirt for my bro too. my mood's spoil.
nothing could describe how I feel now.
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