Camwhoring today with yanying and jiaoni but mostly is me and yanying!yeahz.whoots!had fun today.spent all my 3hours to camwhoring with my girl-friends.did some crazy stuffs which reminds me of the past.the life i have in secondary school.my friends,especially sandra and wan ting.the 3 of us.all although attitude-ed,but our friendship remain good.hopefully i can meet them soon.especially sandra.it's like i haven't seen her for a decade.*misses her.

had ambassador tingy just now.omg.it's just all of a sudden.and that makes me heart attack.LOL!i guess i really need to adapt to the environment.and to build up my cofidence and courage.and everyone's speaking well in english and i have to adapt to this type of environment=] the english environment!seriously speaking,i'm adapting well to this poly life.being with my friends,although not that close with classmates but then,with yanying and jiaoni, im contended!lols.

practising to speak fluent english.whaha.to improve on my public speaking.and there will be 2 more rounds of interviews going on.hopefully i can enter this.and successfully enrol into ambassador.

i wanted to be all rounder.yeahz.

friday is skirt day.shall look forward to wearing skirt.yeahz.yanying's too.=]

homework's piling up.just when i thought excel will come to a halt,there's assignment again!im wrong!ohmy.got to chiong again.and my puffy eyes will appear again.=(

ying and me!

ghosty effect

whoots! Star which makes us stand out from others!

shall end it here.haha.tomorrow meeting my precious darling dear laogong dave.heehs.maybe watching spiderman 3.whaha.time passes very fast and our 3rd month is coming.excited?

baby,you're my star.Accompany me throughout my life. :)

Whahaha.At least now i'm half way through the EXCEL.my 160++ pages.

anyway,this week passes so quickly.lectures..tutorials and ccas.whahaha.i intended to join floorball after dear's approval!thanks so much.although i know you don't really approved me of going cause you are afraid that i will tired out easily,but thanks for respecting my decision.muacks!

sooooo many homework and tutorials.my mission of completing the tutorial questions are going to be im-possible cause of the EXCEL.and next week is E learning.omg.so many things needed to be done online.and the japanese course too.HAIZ.sianz.

well.starting to get well with my classmates.guess we are opening up to all.hahas.

ever since school starts,me have been hanging out with yanying.guess dear will get jealous soon.^.-

and ya,muz thank her for accompanying me even though she dun have lesson after that.thanks!we even wear 'couple' shirt today.LOL!

after school,waited for dear at the bus stop outside school.omg.it's raining heavily!went to his house and played audition!after so long!miss audition!dear's good at BEAT UP.i'm worst at it.lols.

ohwell.got to go now.brb.

wanna see my secondary school friends.missed them lots.i alr know somehow,we will be spilt.HAIZ.

dear,i hab given you all my heart.
i have loved someone and be loved by someone.:)

i'm in school now.raining heavily.thanks yanying for sending me back to school although we both get drenched,but still,my lappies is okay!hahas.

went to westmall after IS module.whaha.cuz went to change my laptop pouch.finally got a decent pouch.got a hole in my pocket.=(

some photos taken with dear today when i met him at mac.1st time taking photo cause seriously my phone's cam really sucks!!!!

WE ARE LOVELY COUPLES!^^

okay.juz upload one will do.whahaa.

boring.still waiting for cca.time passed very slow.omg.

there's alot of projects waiting for me.=(

whahhaa..finally finish making OUR blog.

credits to dear and me.especially dear cause he found the blogskin de.muacks!

alrights.got to go.tomorrow got IS lesson.eheh.

失望。好失望。我侧底的失望。
forget it

im juz getting emo.suan le.
my mood sudddenly spoilt.
supposed to be a happy day but now,i guess,
tears going to drop again.

guess i need a good rest..

heart has been broken..

had fun today.morning went to temple to pray.after that went to westmall to look for jialing.long time didnt see her.lols.she said i changed alot.^^ and she said i have slim down.hehes.happy.

after sometime,my precious darling dearie finally turned up.lols.dunno how long i have waited for him!then we went to clementi's kbox together with his friends.yeahz.me,him and de jian reached first.so the 2 guys started singing.didnt sang much at the beginning cause i'm kinda paiseh.yeahz.

okay i got to admit dear's voice is louder and higher than mine.he's high pitcher while i'm low.=]

shortly after, yong hao and hui teng joined us.his hair was freaking funny okay.lols.realised that his friends were friendly so i feel comfortable with them after that.

after kbox,we went on our ways cuz i dun wanna go pool-ing.hahas.then me and dear went to westmall to eat.after that proceed to his house.and went home.

finally finishin configuring my internet so no one can steal my wireless anymore.whaha.

baby,i'm happy today.i'm touched by your song today.everything that you have done today.thanks for today.i could still hear your singing in my ears!it will never go away!iloveyou.muacks!

HAppy birthday to yupeng!

didnt went for her celebration cause my lesson ended late.i have missed MA7 outing.well,thats okay but i guess nxt time there will be chance for us to see each other again.=)

regarding the previous post,actually i dunno why i can say until so..touching?i know my english is weak but at least i could express my feelings,the things that i wanna to say and to share with all my readers.i am kinda touched by what i said in the previous blog too.guess it's because i'm stress too?perhaps.

anyway,i hope everyone can pursue their own dreams and love.and cherish what you all hae right here.do not be so greedy.learn to accept what you have now.do not regret in whatever decision you guys have made.

life has ups and down.whenever you feel lonely,remember there will be someone willing to listen to you.

life is about making choices and decision.

so no matter what happens,there will be a guardian angeel beside you,helping you throughout the way,thats what i believe so sharine,don't worry too much!

i suddenly realised that i'm an emo person.easily affected by people.I wanna be counsellor.be psychiatrist but now,i don't think i can..

went to dear's house today.and i realised how much i love him.=) somemore his new hairstyle is funny cause he went to have his hair trimmed.so funny.actually it's not funny,it's very boy boy.kinda look younger.i looked older when i'm with him.lols.

watashi wa chaileng desu.
chaileng aishiteru dave.=]

well,i'm here to blog again.somehow,i feel that parents are overprotective of us.Regardless of studies,relationships,friendships etc,they would think that we are not doing the right thing.this shows that they don't trust us young people?learning is part of growing up.If parents are overprotective of us and when we gets clinched onto them,how can we be independent?

Mum's always tells me that i should be careful when choosing friends and i shouldnt jump into relationship at a tender age of 17.and she always says that she mean no harm.yes.i know it but she's simply don't understan me well.and the trust between parents and children are weak,and sometimes,simply no trust?
talking about love,had a short chat with sharine just now.I went to see her blog just now and ya,her every words touched me alot.same as raven,quite inspiring and touching.many things that she highlighted in her blog are quite true and i always admire her for all the decisions that she made.how brave that she is.

In life,we have to accept the path that we have chosen.and that's true.as what she has say,"zou yi bu suan yi bu"its really true.i can understand how she feel when her parents' disapproval of her being with him.and guess she's really stress and confused.parents always think they are right.and that they are doing the best for their children but do they realised what their children really wants?
love has no boundaries.be it long distance relationship(i believe it exists.),the age gap(younger or older)etc.so long as both have the chemistry for each other,that will be all that is needed.being with someone you love is blissed.so i encourage all to cherish the ones beside you.

sharine,if you happens to see my blog,i hope you will not regret in making this decision.I will support you till the end.go for it!don't regret.and prove to your parents that age gap is not a barrier in your relationship.and by then,i guess,they will understand you.take care.god bless.

anyway,i want to thanks dear for making a sumptuous lunch for me.thanks alot.loveya!

i enjoy the time spending with you although we will quarrel with each other over small things but nevertheless,my love for you will never change.:)

whee~

ilovepoly life.its cool.poly is cool.so does my friends.
and yupps,i'm in the cool library now drinking bubbletea.
and me and yanying are supposed to revise on our work but ended up,well,we are using laptop!just don't really have the mood to do homework.how inefficient we are!lols.we just couldn't resist the temptation of using laptop.BWAHAHA!

school's really nice.I'm loving it.it's way way different from sec school.im right in making the correct decision so i guess,poly's really good for me.and making all those great friends,enjoying the lectures.

and ya,i gotta create one stupid blog again.for IS.yeahz.and i wanna score well for all my subjects.aiming.lols.

i'm kinda stress this few days and i guess only dear knows it.why on earth everything is about money?guess ii shouldnt be so spendthrift anymore.should start saving money.yeah.and i haven paid money for yoga lesson fees!!omg!!

my contact lens and my 170bucks bill haven pay!!help!!im in financial crisis!

oh ya.meeting dear ltr.hehe.at least can see him today cuz tml my japanese course is starting and i wanna join some of the ccas!gonna be busy!alrite!

off now.got to go download stuffs.cya

hey guys.school's starting tomorrow!!

poly life is awaiting for me.I feel so excited after so long.about 4 months didnt went to school?haha.sure i do miss studies alot.and my resolution for this year is to work extra hard for my studies.^^

but i guess after a month or so,i will get tired of school?perhaps.whaha.how unrealistic i am.but imagine i have to drag my feet everyday to go school.and sometimes its so unwanting to go school but still,school is the best when there's great people around like me.=P oOps!

yeahz.have been busying with my printer.yeahz.the inks making me mad.the colored ink suddenly empty and i have to chiong to plaza to buy it.and guess what?i'm too axious that i didnt zip up my zipper!no wonder so many people keep lookin at me.omg.how embarrassing could that be!

i miiss MA7!yeahz.friday's having dinner.yupps.that's terrific!can gather with all the great and fun loving peeps once again!iloveyou guys.

anyway,dear's starting school tomorrow too.and i guess i will miss him alots.yupps.we won't have much time to spare for each other xcept weekends?and what happens when my yoga lesson starts?i wonder.hmm.

tomorrow got cca fiesta.which cca should ii choose?hip hop?will i be able to get in?

anyway,it's pretty late now.got to go.will try to blog frequently.

nites all.cheers.
leng (''\/'') dave

I'm back!

after 4days3nights of "camping",i'm here again to stop my blog from being stagnant!=)

10.04.07

went to dear's house in the morning and put all my stuffs there.headed to school after that.1st day aint that fun cause we don't know each other and at times,it really seems so awkward.my SBs were trying their best to make us talk.okay.i found a new friend,yanying.=)the peeps in my group were all so quiet.perhaps it's because of us.those unfamiliar faces.anyway,we had ice breakers after that.the day ended abit slow.and kinda bored.1st nite at dear's house was great!watched alot of movies.haha!iloveyou dear!

11.04.07

cca and sport's day.a tiring day indeed but fun day too.had mass games and cheers.i love all of them.enjoying the fun and joy that MA shared.MA sorta bonded when we were having lunch.yupps.guys began to talk to us.the awkwardness in us have long gone.I have learnt alot from my OG peeps.they are a bunch of fun people.teamwork and cooperation made us lead to the way of victory!went to meet dear after the events.nice.we had sakae sushi.kinda full after i eat about 3plates?seriously i don't have the appetite although i'm starving!I'm dropped dead after that.slept throughout and wanna apologise to dear for being so selfish.didn't accompany eu.ended up sleeping.sorry!!!

12.04.90

last day of orientation and it's the highlight of all the 3 days,with the grand finale.seriously speaking,BA rocks.MA7 rocks even more!hehe.had beauty pagant.seriously,that guy should win.ended up both the shuai and chio are not shuai and chio de.-.-!whatever.ilovethe dance!!and guess wadd?my group won!Mystical atlantis won!!yupp!all thanks to my voice!LOL!cheers are all around us.glory to MA!and to all SBs!they tried very hard to make us cheer.at least their effort are not wasted.thanks to you guys for making the 3 days fulfilling!

SAY YO~(ECHO)
SAY YO~(ECHO)
SAY YO BABY YO BABY YO(ECHO)
THE COUNTDOWN HAS JUST BEGAN
4.3.2.1...
WE,HAVE WON THE WAR(x03)

Ohya.at night it was super unforgettable cause we had beers and i think i drank for about 1.5bottle?dear say i'm drunk but i don't think so and i'm kinda go seh when i'm walking.so funny.drank another glass of root beer with martel.which i requested.and i'm drop dead.till midnight i puke everything out.all over the place and dear was quite angry!i'm sorry!didnt mean it.sorry!he cleaned all the mess that i 've made and told his mum that he vomited and i took care of him!i have such a ti tie bf!hehe.iloveyoubaby.athough the time we spent togtether ish always short and fast,but nevertheless,i still enjoy the time we spent.iloveyou.thanks for taking care of me!

MA7 BAoc rocks.
irocks.
mydearrocks.

33mins more to our 2nd month!

where are you?why off your phone?I'm very worried!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sorry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

再一次，我又伤了他。

我不知道为什么我要这样对你。我真的不知道。当你告诉我的时候，我很自责。为什么要这样对你？我不知道我到底在想什么。我不想伤害你的。真的。我不要这样！

看他这样如此的痛苦，我的心也跟着碎了。 就像一把刀刺进我的心。我真得很后悔。委屈-是他现在的心情吧。 我的眼泪也不由自主地掉下来。都是我不好！全部都是因我而引起的。我的错！
everything is my fault.I don't want this to happen.just my fault.and I don't know what to do.all my fault.all my fault!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I regretted for being so childish.really regret.fuck.I hate myself.I hate myself.I hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

If it's not for my stubborness,nothing of this sort will happen.i seriously don't know what's becoming of me.I hate myself.TO THE CORE.

I just want to tell you that I didn't mean to hurt you.I know I shouldn't lie but what will happen again if I tell you the truth?

NIGHTMARE!

I'm truly sorry.

i'm back home.okay i admit i'm a pig.slept for quite long today.morning woke up and drag my feet to aunt's house!the day spent wasn't that fruitful though.i simply don't like to participate in any of my maternal's events cause it's just so bored.no one to talk to cause i'm not familiar with them.not close enough with them at all.

yeah.the wedding wasn't that fun but the food was nice.super full.played with wayne and kiren.the 2 kids are so so cute.i shall upload the photos asap.kinda lazy now so don't wish to upload.=))

tomorrow i open the bloody shop!omg!then have to ask the security guard to help me with the fucking shutter.

am feeling quite moody and sad now.just don't know why.talking to weikang now.he is feeling super duper low.ya.he's sad and vexed now.and me too.i'm sad.2person sad at the same time.lols.can console each other.as if.

off to sleep.don't wan to blog in this fucking blog.

04-04-07

1st and the last time i'm working with edward.yeahz.i bullied him.it's kinda fun bullying him.=] he's quite suay though cause i make him burn a hole on his pocket!LolS!

he bought swensen ice cream and titbits for me.whaha.sure he spent alot.
the day just passed in a blink of eyes.

05-04-07

nothing much today.work's boring but bopian.luckily michelle came and accompany us.if not i think i will be sleeping in th shop.LOLs.saw newspaper article.omg.it's about blog stuffs.haha.don't wish to elaborate.

jialat.my phone bill!!dunno how to pay.didnt use as much as last month but i dunno why so much.die.

ngee ann's letter arrived.kinda confused.only say 10th reporting day and time.i'm in atlantis 7.who is same as me?

tomorrow might not be able to go hdear's house.due to my mum.but whatever.i will try to go cause i miss him.my dearies!

03.04.2007

worked with kelvin.but i open shop early.ah peng came and send stocks.he's making me scared!the way he talked like wan to kill people.cause he's quite angry.after that,got one lady bring a baby and i keep playing with the lil boy.then the mother say,'see,play with this pretty auntie lah' -.-" am i so old?do i look lyk auntie?

and know what?my toe chipped off!for goodness sake,why did the nail chipped off so easily?super pain and got blood somemore.kelvin is really a joker.he's making me laugh the whole day.at least,working at westmalll is rather worth there.

on the way back home,i saw wei kang on the bus.we talked alot.1st time talked so much with him but then,i'm quite upset about it.seriously i didnt expect that.or rather,expected it but didnt know it would happen that fast.feeling kinda upset.reached home talked to my gal.yeah.she didnt know what to say either.cause she's super shocked.ya,whats done cannot be undo.i dont like the way life is now.god is putting me in a test.and i'm stuck in between.what should i do?

04-04-2007

here i am blogging at dear's house.didnt talked much.
now didnt have the feeling to blog.
gtg soon.i'm late for work again.
edward's working with me today.

sometimes i wonder why i am like that.

2nd day of life without dear.didnt get to see him.sobs.but its okay because tomorrow i can see him!!haha.kinda miss him alots!although on the front i doesn't really seems to care but on the whole,i really do care alot for him.i miss him!!misses!!


anyway.last day of work at far east.when i was walking out of far east,i felt an urge to stay at far east longer cause i have feelings for it.be it happy.sad memories.all in all for the past 2mths,i have been there with affections.and yupp,its kinda weird to say i have got feelings for the mall.weird.but whatever it is,i will still visit syimah and co whenever i have the time!


sometimes i felt that i'm really too emotional.dunno why.sometimes i gets super emo whenever i read a book or listen to those touching music.that's make me feel that sometimes i do take things for granted and i hoped to change that bad habit of mine.


anyhow,working at westmall from tomorrow onwards till 9april with kelvin!should be fun and happy working with him.and ya,working at westmall got advantage.near dear's house.hehe.and school's starting soon.must make full use of my time with him if not i guess,i wont have much time for him.


dunno why there's bombing sound heard outside my house?terrorist attack?OMG.or someone wanna invade singapore?well.ii guess i think too much.=p

off to sleep.

finally i'm here to blog again!just finish watching another episode of hua yang shao nian shao nu.ohmygod.it's fucking nice!can make me sad,happy and laugh like hell.i watched dvd just to pass time because today really pass so SLOW!wanna die.i miss my darling..SUPER LOTS!

just finish talking on phone with my dear.i admit i miss him alots!really alot!! when i hear his voice,i super duper happy!sorry for today ah.me kinda weird today because this is the 1st time we both never meet each other so will not used to it.that's why.so super sad.that's why i'm rude to you.i'm sorry!! syimah also say i kena depression.LOLS.maybe? and from morning till night when i go home,i was listening to zhuang shu tian shi all the way.then keep thinking of him sia.SAD.but i understand.i can't be so selfish.so i must be more understanding.and whenever i miiss him,i would do the things that he would do,eat the things that he normally buy for me.like chocolate,TWIX.when i was eating,i keep thinking of him non-stop.and listen to the song to reminisce the happy moments we have.

i told myself that i just need to tolerate for freaking 2weeks and everything will be back to normal.yeahz.so right now everyone must help me to pass the time.if not i sure will feel super duper lonely.but it's okay.ohya!tomorrow,which is sunday will be my LAST DAY AT FAR EAST.i will be offically moving to WESTMALL with effect from 2nd april.time really pass so fast.now it's already april,few more days and school will be starting soon.i hope everything will be fine.i will miss far east and all the great people there!sob!

anyway,to my preciousdarlinghoneylovelydearlaogong,you have moved into my life.you are already part of my lifer.without you,what's life?and,you're the one i love the most NOW and FOREVER!

everything's black and white without him. i realised how important he is to me.everything has changed when he moved into my life,140207.iloveyou,my dear baby.