went to dear's house today.slacked and slept at his house for quite sometimes before we go out.we went to vivo.wanted to watch NORBIT but the movie started at 9plus.-.-"

ended up we went up to the highest level.the scenery there was nice!we sat down at a corner and watched the sunset.slacked there for quite sometimes.the night there was nice with the lights beautifying the place.yupps.the couples' place.lover's hunt.lols.

i was supposed to meet up with mummy but ended up i cancelled it.wanna spent more time with dear <3 after that we went shopping.i love shopping!

it has been a long time since i last shopped!anyway,i went to zinc shop.cause i have gotten a mission.fuck that bitch*es!at least i help girl to revenge.i know they didnt welcome me at all.but who cares anyway?just wanna mess up everything.hehe.

tomorrow working again.hopefully girl will come back work!i miss her!!!!!! but i miss my dear more ><

kimi o aishiteru

chingay day cum fun day

yes.its a fun day today.wrk wibb ah ben td.had a long chat wibb him.we talked simply abt everyting under the sun.

but dunno whyy tym passed so slow diz 2 days.soo freakin frustrating.at nite,arnd 9 miie wanna call dear to come in th shop but hp flat so ii call usin shop phone.den ah ben wanted to play prank on him.so he pick up th call..nd started to play wibb him.

everyting ish soo funny.dear super funny.cute.ignorant.lols.he tot ii really at information counter.somemore he didnt step into th shop at all where all along im in th shop!!

when ii saw him how worried he was,ii felt relieved nd glad nd happy nd everyting.nd ii neo in his heart,im impt to him.althou throughout th whole prank,im laughin all th way.haha.

but wadever it ishh,ii am veh happy dat moii dear cares alot abt miie!thx!!but ii will nv forget td.neither will eu rite?hehe.

and everyting ended wibb happy ending.

te quiero

life ish boring b4 eu enter moii life

lifeless.dats all ii can say.everyday's daily routine ish to wake up bathe den go wrk den at nite chat on phone.slp.basically doin th same ting again nd again.so stupiid.

aimless life.am excited for th result.ii dunno whether ii will be really posted to ngee ann's business studies or not.ii really hope so.at th same tym,im afraid.of not getting in.

anyway,td's wrk ish sooooo funny.wrked wib siaocharbo tricia.haha.she's mad.n funny n cute.put th 2 inexperienced gals of cuz will becum havoc.but still enjoy td.

im super angry.fed up n wanted to kill dat bastard.ii really hope syimah ish okay.she's hospitalised now after eating 8pills.omg.ii really hope she's fine.really wanna go find her.but got wrk.=(

ytd,ii saw HIM.kinda shocked.somemore he's in front of miie.he looks alot diff frm th past.more style etc.ya.dat makes miie tink of th past.he's truly moii 1st love. but iim clearly forgotten abt him.alr let go of everyting althou he still cant be replaced by anyone in moii heart now.

nd ii hate ppl lied to miie.SHE SAID SHE nv tok to HIM.but everytym ii went to wrk,ii alwiz saw THEM talking.HOW TO BELIEVE THEM?ii mean HER.she's tryin to break our connections?or has she patch up wib him juz bcuz she's scared ii will snatch him away?pls.im not liddat.its ttrue ii did admire him.DATS THE PAST.NOT NOW.now ii onli hab moi dear..

and no one else!

many tings are beyond our control

yes.its true.many tings are simply beyond our control.ii dunno wadd to sayy.alot of tings arise today.nd diz makes miie wonder whether ii shld be caution of ppl.

readers out dere may tink dat its absurb or dramatic.but wadever it ish,its true.

morning,suppose to meet syimah nd her bf at 10.30 outside topshop but end up she late.=/ den we went shoppin here nd dere.bought onli one zara top.had fun wibb dem.cuz th bf reali a joker.

bought a pair of slippers from far east.nd syimah has a shoppin spree.lols.she bought alot siiah.

after dat,arnd 2plus moii darling laogong came.hehe.to accompany.love eu sweetie!

everyting seems to be so sweet until when syimah get back from th toilet nd ii saw her cryin.totally stunned.

ii cant belive why her bf will do diz to her.bastard siiahz.he sucks.guys all sucks except moii laogong =) yeahz.she's sadd nd cried.ii felt emo nd glanced at baby.baby oso dunno wadd to do.ended up she went to buy cigarette.-.-

finish wrk slightly earlier den usual so we accompany syimah to hq.yeahz.expected.saw HIM.ya.didnt neo wadd to say or wadd..soo ii didnt do anyting.

he DID saw baby.ii dunno th details but ben say he cried.ii dun belive.syimah oso say so.nd ya,ii saw it wib moii own eyes.his tears.

ii am so sorry.iim not angry wib eu or sad or wadever it ish.we juz niid tym.ii neo.ii hurt eu deeply.im sorry.dere's nth ii can say other den sorry.

hopefully tml will be a better day ba.

*misses moii laogong.
14022007 =P

valentine's day-a special day for couples,family nd frenz.a day where love ish in th air.

for miie,ii received quite a few gifts nd im quite happy,touched nd all dose emo. stuffs.

but tings goes wrong rite from th start.dat when miie nd hiim together.ii hurt another guy.th guy whu used to be cheerful,nice nd sweet.but now,turning to be someone ii dunno.

love ish selfish.perhaps he ish meeting th wrong person at th wrong tym.nd th wrong psn ish miie.ii really hope he will understan diz logic one day.and to add on,ii added salt to his wound.ii neo its hurtful.but no choice.

to kapo:
ii am so sorry.sorry to hurt eu.but wadever eu have done for miie,im veh touched.nd appreciate it.from th bottom of moi heart.thx!but ii really hope we will still be frenz.the way we used to be.ii really hope eu will understan it one day.maybe eu niid tym.ii gib eu but ii wan back th real eu.real edward.th edward ii used to noe.

as for td,didnt really wanna tok abt it but thx him for all dat he has done.im touched.nd ii had a memorable v day.althou ii hurt everyone.


but life ish all abt making choices,accepting,forgiving nd rejecting.

finally th verdict's over.nd perhaps,for miie,im quite happy wibb th result.not totally HAPPy,but somehow iim proud of moiiself,maybe bcuz of th improvement.but im still not satisfied.

humans are lidat.im no exception.=X

ohya.celebrating sandra's bday tml.yupp.quite lookin forward to it.hopefully everyone enjoy esp sandra th birthday galz..

anyway,surprises are coming up nxt.hmm.wrkin wib syimah at far east ish good but th environment dere ish BAD.super BAD.th food smell simply turn us off.somemore make miie sore throat nd blocked nose.dumb ass.

gtg.waiting for tml.awaits for th fun=P

i am a crybaby='(

cried 2times in a row.super pro.
dun wish to tok muchs abt it.ii super sad.

anyway,ii wan N73!!ii used it td!!the cam ish nice!!!so clear!!!but ii wan th phone!!!sobs!even 2nd hand wib good condition oso can!lols.

ii tink iim mad.2nd hand.-.-"

many tings happened overnite.be it bad.good.sad or happy.ii still accept it in th end.

and ii finally said out wadd ii wanna said long tym ago.it kpt in moii heart for fucking 8mths.finally.all out.

but dere's someting troubling miie now..

AND DATS...

when will ii get moii n73?ii really wanna get dat phone!!!!

finally changed moii blogskin!

24-01-07
moii off day.went out wib leo to watch ghost tunnel.ii tot it wld be quite scary but end up not dat scary.th storyline ish not interestin enuff cuz its easy to guess wad wld happen nxt.overall rating ish 2stars.

quite happy wib him.lols.hopefully he enjoyed dat day too.=]]

25-01-07
wrk at westmall td.wib kelvin.lol.played wib his lg chocolate phone.so sensitive.th touh pad too sensitive.addicted to his game-zoo zoo club.wadd a name!its lyk bejeweled.ii manage to pass lvl 6 while he cant!lols.dats th happy ting.hehe.overall td quite happy cuz sandra came to look for me.finally can see her again.yupps.

result ish out soon?omg.ii really hope ii can go either business studies or psychology.pls god!!help mie!!prayin hard!!hope heaven will help miie!jiayou!

got mixed feelings now!!

went out wibb eriik nd his frenz to buy vcds td.kinda weird nd dey are so funny.ahaha.after dat went to meet sandra nd so we went to np open hse.
reached dere arnd 6 den we went to walk arnd.now ii dunno which course to choose.business studies or psychology?kinda in dilemma.soo blur.

anyway,met li xia n wan ting at causeway.we had our dinner dere.but ii had moii breakfast cum lunch cum dinner.didnt finish moii porridge.not hungry.now oso not hungry.dunno whyy.im not full.not hungry either.

took neoprints togta.althou can see th gals td but..somehow,ii didnt hab topics to tok to dem.feel abit outcast.ii dunno why.maybe ii tink too much.im easily jealous.emotional.sensitive.nd wadever fuck.

didnt tok muchhs td.am super duper quiet td.sometyms ii dunno whyy..ii will cry over small tings.suchh a cry baby.sickening.
still on diet.hopefully b4 chinese new year ii will be able to buy moii clothes.th skirt dat ii wan to buy.

ii dun wish to be ignored by moii frenz.somehow,somewhere,ii will gib up.sooner or ltr.

I shall declare that from td onwards,16-01-07,ii will be wrking at far east plaza.not at bugis street anymore.so guys.if eu all wanna find me,pls look fer me at far east.thx.

money ish th destroyer of everyting.yes.it destroy me totally.making me mad lyk hell.from tml onwards,ii dun nid to eat.cuz ii got no more spare money.fucker.dunwan gib me money den no money eat.no money eat den will hungry.hungry den will gastric pain.den in th end if ii cant tahan,few days ltr ii will faint.den by dat tym,ii will die.th BETTER!

since they neo iim saving up for hp nd laptop,all th more they shld gib me money.fuck sia.ii wan dat bloody hp .gonna earn moiiself.but how?stupid.so fucking angry.wanna buy th hp by feb.th latest in march which ish moii bday.but fucker,now ii dun tiink ii can buy.its mission impossible unless got ppl buy for me.or strike lottery.

wadever,td not much mood.1st day of wrk ish ok.bully th carol.whaha.wanna buy dat topshop dat top.but ii dun wanna spent money.haiz.help miie!!moii hp bill burst!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[cousins forever]

[at ah bing jie's wedding]

[darkness in grand copthorne waterfont hotel>>th hotel dat initially ii wrk as waitress]

[cousins!ksjs!rocks!]

[cheeky faces!ppl say ii look gothic.do i?]

[ii look ghostly.!haha.]

[mirror relection.2 of us simply rocks.i love her!]

worked at westmall td wibb kelvin again.it was okay.but sales aint good.but moii sales td good.haha.iim so careless.alwiz forget to bring money.luckily dat josh came to collect his bag.moii GREAT saviour!thx darling for buyin mie lunch!lol!super happy.yeah.he told mie he's getting a piercing on his lips.omg.its damn disgusting.damn gross.nd he will waste 60bucks juz liddat.ii rather use th money to do facial or shoppin den piercing moii lips nd hab to stand th pain.so bloody disgusting.

anyway,ii dunhab th rights to prevent him from piercing too cuz he's aint moii man.nd seriously,ii really condamn those type whu pierce anywhere but ears.no offends.no insult.juz personal view.dun lyk.by th way,he msg me.ii was kinda surprised by th msg.really,ii duno wadd shld ii reply.no ans given.

a brand new year wib a brand new me.lol.yahz.sorta true.dunno how to say but eu guys can judge me.more street-lyk style.not dat conservative anymore.good or bad?anyway,feb ish coming soon.a fun,exciting,anxious nd heartaching mth.why?cuz of th release of o level result.!!chinese new yr!!valentine's day!!sandra's bday!!whu shall be moii valentine diz yr?lol.anyway,open hse coming!dat means ii can hab reunion wibb moii galfrenz!

veh happy cuz ii can see dem once again.kinda sad nd down diz few days cuz dey didnt contact me muchhs but im sure we will contact again.nd 18 will be moii BIG day.th day where FUN&LAUGHTER fill the air!haha.

ii miiss all moii frenz!love eu guys!

1st day of work without him.he has quit nd sunday was his last day.kinda too sudden.dats whyy sunday was so pek chek.didnt make full use of th tym.we didnt tok muchhs cuz we will quarrel.ii dun understan why we will quarrel so muchs.

tokin abt sunday,HE came to look for mie.sarina dey all were kinda excited to see him.ii was lyk,omg,pls.he's not any star cuz ii was kinda paiseh.den th stupid josh tok alot of stuffs.he hasn't changed a single.he hasn't move on.but its mie whu has moved on.nd he said sth which ii duno how to react.

at nite,arnd 9,joseph came nd wait for mie to finish wrk.haha.thx lots boii!yeahz.after wrk we went to shop.walked abit onli nd ii saw alot of nice clothes.moii hands are itchy.wanna buy clothes.ahaha.den awile ltr,he sent me home.ii walked him to th bus stop when reached moii hse.haha.

iim kinda regret.didnt make full use of th tym.whu neos wadd will happen nxt?im sure we will not be able to see each other again.maybe will.but not as often.damn.anyway,he's getting onto moii nerves on th other hand cuz he's makin mie quite dulan.juz lyk ytd,we were tokin thru msn.we quarrelled all bcuz of __________.dun wish to mention.dats when moii 1st drop of tears flow.='( damn fuggin angry nd disappointed.

but now everyting's alrite.anyway,finally bought th bag dat ii wan!!yippee!!ii bargain th price frm 29.90to 20bucks.thx to angie!all th credits to her!haha.im buyin th rabbit too.hehe.soo happy.but td's initially kinda sian cuz tricia went to work at far east den alot of ppl quit.no one to tok to.kinda lonely?erik was lyk,MAD.he kp beating me,punchin me nd stuffs.den ah boon was lyk sayin him begin to play wib galz.wanna sian dem.haha.ii was laughin lyk mad.kenna suan.haha.althou td seems quiet but ii neo without him,ii still can survive.

okay.back here.ppl are wrking.some are having deir 1st 3 mths.nd ii tiink everyone's too busy to rmb me?am ii being forgotten by dem?day by day,ii seems to disappear from dem.kinda not close to dem anymore.yeahz.maybe iim tinkin too much but its true.such stuffs alwiz happen to me.everytym.hope moii frenz didnt forget me.nd iim lookin forward to 18.which ish th open hse.cuz can meet up wib dem.pray hard.nd maybe hab some sort of gathering.hehe.

where's all moii frenz gone to?

everyting sucks today.
initially didnt wan to talk to josh nd ii manage to do it.but after awile he came tokin to me.so ii was lyk.'okay.since eu tok to me,ii shall tok.'
but still gib him a cold shoulder.all bcuz of th confession?actually not really confession cuz ii didnt confess muchhs.but den ii had quarrel wibb him ferr 3 tyms in a row today!can anyone belive dat?juz so stupid ok.he's petty.i'm easily angry.dats why.

secondly,meng sorta scolded me today.shall not elaborate further.den ii couldnt control moii tears.so went to th toilet.on th way,th tears flow out nd ii wipe moii eyes.bcuz of diz,moii contact lens drop.partially blind.=PP
wadd a bad day.ii tot maybe diz will be th end of moii misfortune.but..no!moii feet ache lyk hell.damn pain.bcuz of th new shoes.den got blisters in moii litle toes.sobz.

nd fucking hell ii saw dat 2 bitches.omg.dey look damn mature.nd deir makeup..oh so..eek.freak man.ii didnt serve dem.dey came in twice alrite.ii neo dey wan me serve dem.but too bad,ii ddint.saw seowhuan nd her frenz-a guy.tot ish her stead but she deny.

after wrk,went to slack arnd wib jialing nd josh.tok diz nd dat.yupp.arnd 11.30 den go home.th bus was friggin packed wibb ppl dat many of dem get irritated.nd ii had to stand.poor me.luckily th bus sorta broke dwn a stop b4 moii bus stop.den now at home.feelin sianz.iii tink iim havin blocked nose.omg.illness ish goin to find me!omg.

ii really wan to neo how he tiink of me.at least let me neo althou ii neo dat we will nv be togta cuz we live in diff wrld.ii cant seems to understan wadd type of psn ish he.really cant mo his heart.really cant.its tough to me.

regret no more.
from th day ii told him,ii shall not regret.ii neo th outcome.yet ii still do it.whu cares?since he alreli neo,den..ii shall keep a distance away from him.even if working,ii wont tok to him unless he initiate.kinda in worst situation?hmm.ii dunno how to say.yupp.will try to control moii action.haha.muz kp a dist away frm him.

sigh.td wrk wib water fish.she's good to me.we can get along.dats th good ting.haha.well..shall upload th pix!

[[sarina n me]]

[[act cute]]

[[small eyes]]

[[we are inside the mirror!]]

[[at neoprint shop]]

[[mirror reflection]]

dats all.

i wont regret of wad i hab done.